Terese Currey - Seed Space AU

19/10/2023

A love letter to my daughter, Joshwany.

It seems so long ago, but also like yesterday, since I was worried and anxious about how it would all go – would he make it? Would immigration approve his visa in time?

I wanted to hug and be hugged. I wanted him here to sink into each other. It's not the same with mum. And my dad, whilst dad is an awesome hugger. I wanted to melt into someone. The closest thing I had to melt into was my pillow.

I wanted my Mike here.

I so wanted your dad with me for your birth.

And he was 🥰🥰🥰

18/10/2023

This is infant loss month. Every year this month comes around I am reminded of the pain and grief of years of infertility. Years of unexplained infertility.

Yes that is what the fertility doctors told me - “you are a case of unexplained infertility, we can’t exactly say why you are not getting pregnant, you do not have endometriosis or PCOS or any other physical blockage or obvious issue in your bloods”.

It drove me mad, it ate me away from the inside. Not knowing what beast I was to tame, what part of me needed more love and attention.

During pregnancy and infant loss month, I felt loss. And I felt resentment. I know this may sound wrong, but this is my truth.

I resented all the women who had lost a child because at least they had been pregnant. I resented all women who became pregnant with ease. They didn’t know how blessed they were, I thought. I had to go off social media during the month of October as I couldn't face that I felt a loss as well, but I didn't have anything to show for it. No photo of an embryo, no positive pregnancy test, no changes to my body,

What I would have given to feel the depths and range of emotions rather than this numbness, stillness, stagnation … stuck in pause. Month on month the same outcome. My perfectly in tune cycle of 29-30 days. Like clockwork, every month. And nothing.

I thought becoming pregnant would heal this wound. I thought becoming a mum would heal this wound.

I am so grateful for my daughter and I thank all the stars in the sky several times per day for bringing her into my life. And it hasn’t healed that hurt of 10 years of trying to get pregnant and being told there was no reason I wasn’t getting pregnant. This confused me and delayed my decision to go through IVF. I couldn’t trust no reason. No reason meant there was hope.

Now I hurt for the 10 years in stagnation. How would my 12 year old baby, who I never lost but wanted so much be right now? How would her brothers or sisters be?

❤️

18/10/2023

What is matrescence?

Matrescence is the journey to motherhood.

Think of it like adolescence, but for mothers.

It is an entire system wide shift in the mental, emotional, energetic and physical bodies.

It encapsulates the journey of becoming pregnant, being pregnant, birthing and the time after your child is born.

Matrescence also affects those who have never been able to conceive, suffered pregnancy, stillbirth or infant loss or have a child via adoption or surrogacy.

The exact length of time varies with each individual and recurs with each child - it may last a lifetime.

The word was created by Dana Raphael, an anthropologist, back in the 1970’s. Raphael also coined the term doula and was a breastfeeding advocate.

On Saturday 11 November at 11am I am holding a beautiful online event to officially launch Seed Space and we will be talking about all things Matrescence and why nervous system regulation and co-regulation is SO IMPORTANT during this phase of life. Come and join me for EXCLUSIVE OPENING OFFERS!

Register your interest here: https://linktr.ee/terese.currey

18/10/2023

Story time...

I never believed in miracles. They were either too flimsy and whimsical… stuff of fairy tales. Or a place of holy worship and the divine. Something I was never worthy of as a sinful guilt ridden Catholic.
But I prayed. I didn’t realise it then but I prayed.

I wanted to jump. To dive off a cliff into the water below. I wanted freedom. I wanted to break free. I prayed for this, without realising. I meditated and thought about it. I went to sleep thinking about it. I woke up thinking about it. I told people about it, saying I want this big change but I don’t know what it is I want. It was the beginning of 2016 and through all this, I was praying for a miracle and I didn’t even realise it.

In July 2017 I was living it. I was in a bikini on the back of a motorcycle riding behind my Caribbean lover (now husband) from one side of paradise island to the next. We were going to jump off the bridge into the deep channel below. This was our ritual whenever the energy got stagnant and we wanted to reset and recharge. The sensational rush of freedom and exhilaration. This is what I’d been praying for.

Although it didn’t look anything like I had expected!

Cut back to 2 years earlier to 2015… I was living my “ideal life” … yet here I was asking myself why do I feel so damn trapped and stuck?

I knew there was something greater in this life for me. At that time I believed it was through being a superwoman… being recognised through a leadership position at work, taking minimal time off during my upcoming maternity leave (we were about to do IVF) and striking the perfect work-life balance (which we all know the scales would tip towards work).

So I kept going towards that. Giving too much at work and giving either too much or not enough to my husband, and on reflection way too little to myself, other than yoga classes once or twice a week (my saving grace). All the while a tickling within was telling me something needed to snap… I was like a wound spring that couldn’t hold any longer.

In March 2016 an impeccable and unbelievable and unplanned progression of events unfolded over a week… more next week…

17/10/2023

Friday love letter to myself

It seems so long ago, but also like yesterday, since I sat in the dark places, anger, guilt, wanting things to have been another way, lost as to why I wasn’t feeling the connection with my baby, traumatised by a medicalised and complicated birth, hating the memory of how my most amazing of creations came into my life. Feeling so physically bad. Anaemic, tired, deprived, lost. So many unanswered questions, wondering why I had been abandoned so badly by a medical system I had once trusted, but not sure if I should be feeling that way, what if that is just the way birth is done.

17/10/2023

I don’t care about your baby.

I don’t care if your baby is breastfed, formula fed, goats milk or vegan milk fed. I don’t care if your baby cries or smiles, or if your baby has a condition or they keep telling you “it’s PURPLE crying”.

I don’t care if your baby wakes every 45 minutes and you’re so sleep deprived it is DRIVING YOU MAD! Or if you’re baby is a “good baby” and sleeps through. I don’t care if you are a strict sleep trainer, or let your baby run to their own rhythm. I don’t care if you co-sleep or contact nap or a cot sleeper only!

I don’t care if your baby is advanced, or a slow developer. I don’t care if they are crawling at 6 months and walking by 9. I don’t care if they are rolling over and hitting all the benchmarks. I don’t care if your baby has health conditions that keep you up at night.

I don’t care if teething bothers your baby, or they just take it in their stride. I don’t care if you didn’t intend to give your baby pain relief, that you always intended to be the present parent and to hold them through any situation but sometimes this parenthood thing seems so much that you give in and give them the pain relief, then the mum guilt hits. I don’t care if you swear by herbal remedies or you stand by your baby’s comfort and you’ve given pain relief since before the bottle said they could.

I don’t care if they have brown, yellow, pink or white skin. If they have eczema or nappy rash, if you use coconut oil, sudocrem or vaseline. I don’t care if they have allergies so bad you’ve ended up in hospital.

I do not care for any of this.

This is a JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE.

This is a safe space…

THIS is a safe space for every ONE - every BABY and every PARENT.
Because… ALL are WELCOME!

I can’t wait to meet you and I CAN’T WAIT to hear about YOUR unique baby.

You are loved, you are worthy, you are whole no matter what your baby is like.

16/10/2023

I don’t care about your birth

Whether your birth was in a hospital and full of blinking lights and beeping machines with wires and tubes everywhere, whether you, your partner, your obstetrician or midwife caught your baby, whether there was delayed cord clamping, whether there was dim lights or bright lights, whether your baby had a hard time or you had a hard time.

Whether you birthed in the middle of a pristine rainforest pool and hummed your baby into the world whilst breathing with the earth and nature around you, flora coddling you, fauna cheering you on. Effortlessly.

Whether you homebirthed with all your family around. Whether it was long, hard and whether you needed to call an ambulance because you or baby needed a little help, or whether they arrived safely into the birth pool.

Whether it hurt. Whether it didn't.

Whether it was drug free or you took all the pain relief on offer.

Whether you elected to have a caesarean.

Whether it went to plan. Whether it didn’t.

I don’t care about any of that.

Because THIS is a safe space for every BODY and every EXPERIENCE.
Because… ANYTHING and ALL are WELCOME!

This is a judgement free zone.

This is a safe space.

I can’t wait to meet you and I CAN’T WAIT to hear YOUR unique birth story.

You are loved, you are worthy, you are whole no matter what your experience.

16/10/2023

I don’t care about your pregnancy.

I don’t care if you were glowing throughout your pregnancy and felt 1000% suddenly all the ailments like allergies you normally battle with disappeared and even if you felt a little tired, you felt great all around and it was the most amazing feeling to be growing a human in your body.

I don’t care if you had the perfect instagrammable baby bump from day one, or you had a B shaped bump that looked more like you’d eaten ALL the burgers for the first 6 months of your pregnancy!

I don’t care if you lathered your body in coconut oil and body butters each day stressing about the stretch marks and skin discoloration and the abundance of hair growing on your body.

I don’t care if you had complications. If you’re blood pressure or blood sugar was high, if your iron or blood pressure was low, or if you were diagnosed with “something”.

I don’t care if there were worries with your baby, if they were not growing at the expected rate, if you had multiple check ups weekly and had so many “high-risk” labels over your head every time a doctor opened your file they seemed to go more pale than you did.

Absolutely none of this matters. I do not care for any of this.

Because this is a JUDGEMENT FREE ZONE.

This is a safe space…

THIS is a safe space for every ONE - every new mama and every new birther, every new parent.
Because… ALL are WELCOME!

I can’t wait to meet you and I CAN’T WAIT to hear about YOUR unique pregnancy.

You are loved, you are worthy, you are whole no matter what your pregnancy was/is like.

13/10/2023

Truth!

“It’s not fair on your mind to compare your lowest moments to another person’s highlight reel, especially first thing in the morning.”

~ on scrolling in Women Don’t Owe You Pretty.

Working in a library means I come home with a stack most days. Glad I grabbed this gem.

13/10/2023

Welcome to Seed Space.

I am Tere, a matrescence coach.

What is matrescence? In simple terms, it’s the process of becoming a mother.

So as a matrescence coach, I support women in the transition of becoming mothers. I help them to prepare physically, emotionally and mentally for the biggest lifecycle process of the human life. The lead up to, and the birthing process has the biggest potential for trauma of any of the natural life processes, and I believe the more prepared we can be, the easier the transition.

My vision is to nourish and support parents, particularly new mothers, to be the best carers they can be by supporting their nervous systems, being deeply emotionally available and quite simply the best humans they can be, because I believe the next generation have the keys to a world where we live in harmony with nature and each other, or at least trying to. A world that is less superficial and more aware of their daily choices.

By having a baseline of a calm, regulated nervous system, and using their body as a guide, women are able to face all of the challenges of motherhood and everything with greater ease and grace. This, to me, is matrescence. The compound effect of having holistically, wholehearted mothers on our next generation will be exponential in changing the world.

Thank you for joining me in this space, I can’t wait to share more about our services soon. If you know anyone who is moving through their transition to motherhood journey, let them know we are here and waiting for them.

12/10/2023

When this popped onto my screen this morning I knew it was time.

A couple days ago I sat looking at a photo of me from 4 years ago when I turned 40. She was slim, full of energy and playful. I miss her so much. AND I also knew how much she wanted what I have now. Now we are mother. The 2 years before I was pregnant me and the 2 years after I was pregnant me. Here we are meeting. Overcoming infertility, IVF, high risk pregnancy and post partum depression and anxiety.

Seed Space is me and all these 4 years have taught me, giving back to women in these times of matresence. The most beautiful and most challenging time. It’s all about mental wellness in matresence.

Announcing Seed Space is here and watch this space to see what is seeded here this spring 🌱

12/10/2023

Hi, I’m Tere Currey, and I’m living the life I once dreamed of. I’m here to be the way-shower for others who want to do the same.

As a multi-passionate, spiritually diverse, dream-weaving matrescence coach, I deeply value the process of becoming a mother, because it’s my experience as a corporate dropout, clambering my way out of a lacklustre marriage and taking my life on an adventure to find my Colombian husband that landed me as the mother, the role I had been seeking for over a decade.

I spent many years climbing the corporate ladder, after completing a masters in business management with a leadership major, but my spiritual evolution was always calling me. My journey with personal development started in my early 20s when my parents thought I’d joined a cult called landmark education. I became obsessed with my own personal growth and learning about how humans operate and interact. The dropout was sparked when I left my marriage in 2016 and decided to follow love to Colombia in 2017 and then started studying more about my other love, yoga which introduced me to a world of holistic and wholehearted living.

My husband is from a little island called Providencia. It was always our intention to move back to the island but as yet this hasn’t unfolded for a number of reasons. One of them is inn late 2020 the island was devastated by a hurricane and the rebuiding effort is ongoing. It is our dream to be part of the rebuild, and support the island. We also were blessed with the arrival of our daughter in 2022. A combination of those two have led us to make the decision to move back to my homeland, Australia. So here we are!

My vision is to nourish and support parents, particularly new mothers, to be the best carers they can be by supporting their nervous systems, being deeply emotionally available and quite simply the best humans they can be, because I believe the next generation have the keys to a world where we live in harmony with nature and each other, or at least trying to. A world that is less superficial and more aware of their daily choices.