Operation PTSD.

28/12/2021

25/01/2021

I try to do whatever I can to quiet my thoughts, but often, nothing works.
The television, music..anything I can find to drown out the deafening noise of my mind.
I tell myself that everything will work out the way it’s supposed to, but my heart won’t rest and my thoughts never quit.
I replay where I’ve been and what’s happened,
the turns and twists of our relationship, and still, I lie there and stare at the ceiling..
Consumed by the relentless overthinking that is my way.
I can’t remember a time when I could turn off my mind, and I’ve come to accept that’s just who i am..
But when my heart battles my mind at night, it can become almost overwhelming.
My head tells me to let it go, make peace with the broken road I’ve traveled, but my heart won’t let me.
It tells me to keep fighting, to hold on, that loving someone means struggling and making it through the hard times together.
I can’t help but cry in these times when everything inside me is at war with what I should do.
The tears flow as I fight to regain my composure, but it’s impossible sometimes to keep it together.
Maybe when I get up tomorrow, I’ll feel better or have some ideas about what I should do, but right now, I just feel utterly lost.
Conflict wages inside every corner of me, with no end in sight.
I just want..peace.
I close my eyes and think back to simpler times when love was new and hope was fresh.
I find myself slowly drifting off as those warm thoughts wrap around me like a comforting blanket, giving me much needed peace.
As my heart and mind slow, my dreams whisk me away to a more serene place and my last thought before succumbing to exhaustion is but a simple wish..
Maybe tomorrow, somehow, I’ll find my way to a happier place..and there,
I’ll remember what it means to be content again..where my mind and heart can finally agree with what’s best for me.
Until then, I’ll just do what I can with what I have..
And the simple reminder that gives me solace if but for a moment as I drift off:
It’s always darkest before dawn.
I know that tomorrow will have to be a better day..
If not, I’ll just keep pushing forward and hope for moments of quiet midst my thoughts.
For me, for now, that will have to be enough.
|ravenwolf

25/12/2020

PTSD has many ways it affects the person dealing with it. Angry outbursts, alcohol and drug abuse, isolation, anxiety, depression and attempts at su***de to name a few.

Do not ignore these signs because that person may be calling out for your help in the only way they can. We must train ourselves to listen and be prepared to support them.

Please ask for help if you’re feeling like life is out of control.

If you know someone who suffers with PTSD ask them how they are today. Those few words can make a huge difference.

24/12/2020

If anyone is lonely and are struggling with there mental health this Christmas I’m only a message away! ❤

It’s a really tough time of year for some people.

Lifeline Australia: 13 11 14
Beyond Blue: 1300 224 636
Kids Helpline: 1800 551 80
Emergency: 000
Confidential Helpline: 1800 737 732
Mensline: 1300 78 99 78
Relationships Australia: 1300 364 277

28/11/2020

BLOKES. LISTEN UP.

Stop using alcohol drugs and gambling as a god damn cure for depression. Stop buying your mate a slab of beer and saying “get that in ya and you’ll be right”. Your mate needs fu***ng support, guidance, counselling, financial help, housing help, employment help or whatever they need. They don’t need you to buy them a slab of beer so they can go write themselves off and be the next name in the graveyard.
START LOOKING AFTER YOUR DAMN MATES and STOP HELPING DIG THEIR GRAVE.