29/03/2026
Part 3. Postpartum.
In all honesty, I thought postpartum was going to be a breeze. I had my village lined up with meals and cleaning sorted, all I needed to do was focus on the baby… what could possibly go wrong?
I have never experienced so much chaos in my inner world. I’ve been through trauma yes but this was another level.
Everything hurt, I was so depleted and exhausted from it all + no sleep in the hospital overnight. I was STARVING in the hospital but there was no food.
Was so focused on feeding the baby then suddenly… the hormones dropped, and everything went to 💩. Sleep deprived and my body in shock, I wailed in my bed as the memories and overwhelm came flooding in. A huge somatic release of built up energy since week 36.
Basically I was depleted and unintentionally starved from labour to postpartum day 3-4 😭. Again overstimulated with ni**le damage that would NOT heal, pain from stitches, head ached and fogged, spontaneous crying every few days, severe stress and anxiety about baby not latching and rejecting the breast later, and even fought with my mum. I felt so bad because she was here to help - never had I ever experienced this type of instability.
The 3rd week got better as I pumped and caught some more sleep + ate ALOT more. One day I did mini kinesiology balances ( + grounding) on myself and baby, then she latched! From there it slowly progressed. What helped the most was seeing for a neurological chiropractic session, and for an energy balance. They found structural and energetic imbalances after the birth and realigned me. Highly recommended!
Happy to report aside from sleep deprivation I’m good now, just not ready to be out and about yet (way too much effort!).
If I could share any learnings, it’ll be to get your mind, body and spirit aligned ASAP after a high stress event. Don’t white knuckle it. The body holds stress and pain, and it will come up as emotions, physical symptoms and poor mental wellbeing. Listen to your body and ask for support 🩷