01/11/2022
There may have been situations in your life where your body has experienced trauma, something that has scared you.
What I have come to realize is that no matter where your mind is, no matter how much spiritual work you’ve done or how centered you may be, your body can still react in the same way it once had taking you back to that place of trauma.
I have spent a lot of time in the hospital in the past. More than I wish I had.
Each experience, other than the birth of my two kids (which also brings intense amounts of pain) but is one of the best moments of my life, haven’t been enjoyable.
From surgeries, to needles, to illness and pregnancy scares. Each one, bringing an anxious, nervous, unsettling energy to my body.
Yesterday, I had appointments at the hospital. And no matter how much I focused on being present, acknowledging my situation and praying for the highest outcome, my body was reacting.
My heart was racing, my hands were sweaty and cold. My breathing was shallow. My head was pounding. This overwhelming fear and anxiety just crept in.
I sat in the chair feeling this uncomfortable nervous system response. Paying attention to every single detail that was taking place. All I could do to calm myself was to focus on my breath. Continuing to say in my mind “you are safe.”
And then I realized something.
It wasn’t just the experiences that I had endured that were causing these feelings. But the fear from the other people inside. The pain, the sadness, the low frequency energy.
A lady sitting not far from where I was, that I knew, I could feel, was absolutely petrified. She had received news that she didn’t want to receive.
I was feeling it ALL.
So I prayed for her. And then for every single person that I saw after that. I prayed for them.
For love and light.
For protection.
For gratitude and immense appreciation of health.
Knowing deep inside that this was the shift I was in.
This was the reason I was actually there.
To KNOW,
That I was stronger than the fear.
That I could mentally calm my body.
That I could bring a lighter energy to the place I was in.
We have this ability and it’s one of the greatest gifts we could ever give.
LOVE 🤍