06/18/2026
Yesterday I went shopping, and it made me miss my smaller body🥺
Because I realized shopping was something I have only every really enjoyed when I was much leaner.
I miss the toned muscles, the visible abs, & the confidence I felt when trying on clothes.
But then I started thinking of all the things I don't miss.
• Always being cold.
• Sitting cross-legged & having my legs go numb.
• Feeling anxious about going out to eat.
• Constantly thinking about food, workouts, & whether I'd "earned" a treat.
• Not being able to enjoy dessert & simply stop when I was satisfied.
And suddenly, the list of things I now am able to do - like run a 10km 🙌🏼 - became more appealing than a lower weight.
Now this isn’t to say I have no desire to get stronger & visibly leaner AND more confident in my appearance - because I absolutely do!
But I will not (again) give up my freedom, flexibility, peace or presence just to be a lower weight.🩵
Because while yes, I may have more weight on my body, I also have a lot more joy in my life.🤗