06/18/2026
6 months. Its been 6 months since that awful day/night...'Your daughter has a large mass deep in the base and back of her brain'.... PTSD is a very real thing after that....
BUT, I continue to make the best of each day, as much as I can. Sometimes that is kicking yourself to do things, sometimes it is easier. Sometimes, its just taking a few minutes to cry in your closet before trying again.
We have been given such a gift with having more time with Eliana; Time that was definitely not promised in the beginning. The fact that she is still here 6 months later is a true miracle. Things are up and down regularly, as her body flip-flops between fighting the tumor and fighting off other things (which makes the tumor symptoms come out), so there are good and bad days and the roller coaster continues.
The other day I took her 'swimming'. She was definitely hesitant, but after some gentle pushing, she ended up being SO proud of herself for jumping in (from sitting) from the edge of the pool to me, and kicking her legs to swim while I moved her around in the water. I'm determined to give her the best childhood she can have, in spite of the limitations she has and the constraints I have. I want her to experience/see all that she can, because I don't know how long her childhood will be. I don't always hit the mark, but I try. And will keep trying.
Today, Eliana and I went downtown where she got to see geese and goslings, ducks, lots of boats at the marina, a parasailer, and Ogopogo. She got to play a piano in the park, and play at the water park. She had really bad balance today, so she couldn't walk around on her own, but still had a lot of fun. It was a great morning....until she lost her beloved little Jesse figurine (Toy Story), and SOBBED all the way home. At least it was a good morning??