06/01/2026
I turned 33 last week đ
Lately Iâve felt like Iâm being pulled between two different chapters of life. For years I assumed overachieving, goal-setting, and productivity would be the norm for my adult life. But in the last couple years Iâve been pulled towards the soft, slow and fun feelings of life that remind me of my childhood, a phase of life that was free of pressure.
I spent most of my 20s and the start of my 30s grinding. I always had the next goal in mind. Each next âstepâ to take in life was clear, and I took each next step without taking the time to actually bask in the achievement of the last one.
But now Iâm kind of just floating? And it feels good at times. And other times itâs deeply uncomfortable and my ego voice pops up in a panic and screams âset more goals!!!â
But then I ask myself whatâs the rush? I worked my t***y off to afford the life I have now. I always had a clear vision of being my own boss, working 4 day work weeks, finishing my workdays by 3pm, and living close to a beach to take my breaks at low-tide and collect seashells to adorn my home with.
Whatâs the good in jumping from goal to goal if we donât take the time to just bask in all weâve achieved? The ego can tell us weâre not worthy of sitting still, of resting, of just enjoying a state of being. It can label us a procrastinator or lazy, when everything that our life reflects suggests the opposite.
Not to mention the goal posts will continue to move for infinity. You think hitting 6 figures will make you happy, but then the high of that comes and goes and youâre soon wondering, why not more?
All I can say is give yourself permission. If your spirit wants to take a pause on all the capitalism and ego-driven behaviours that our modern life comes with, then take that pause.
Take the pause free of guilt or shame or regret. You donât have to keep pushing through just because your ego tells you to.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading this ramble. I appreciate my little Solace community and for you guys being here regardless of what phase of life Iâm in.
Happy Gemini season âïž