18/09/2023
The gifts of the Underworld, aka
the tender return journey after being stripped down...
..when feeling raw and naked & meeting the outer world again with a fragile, cracked open heart, that has been entered by Life & seems to take its first full breaths again..
..when having been guided by an invisible teacher into deeper cycles of an Underworld, which is Life itself
..when having learned to give a wider permission to trust that living force that pulls us (me) down into a dark source, that is God. Within.
...and when finally having
U N L E A R N E D ! to even condition this descend falling and to surrender to its own non linear timeline. When true acceptance dropped, that this journey cannot be limited into a free schedule of three days or three months.
Maybe it needs 6 months or even a year until we (I) finally turned fully towards the essence of pain & received the relief of suffering.
And through that: touched more the essence of who we are (who I am) in the core of our (my) being.
Realizing the masks and form that have been covering the heart, the being & the woman and eventually daring to stay and move with the energy of that raw, naked self.
"The tender return journey...." is asking us (me) to cultivate intimacy with the new self and the unshielded heart. To resepct the gentle, slow pace that is required and to undo, to unlearn and pull down masks, again and again.
All, while realising with a sense of stunned innocence, that
I am life.
I am the essence that beats through my fragile human heart.
I am life, in a human form, finding its way to interweave and break through other forms to touch and meet in the core of an infinite, divine ocean, moment by moment.
(Who am I without the form?
A naked, beating heart, tender, fragile and yet stubbornly brave in its dedication to go out and meet Life again.)