08/03/2024
Happy IWD + Happy Birthday to Me 🎉
So my birthday is also International Women’s Day, a perfect combined celebration.
This year I step into a new cycle, the stage of becoming, or already become.
8 years ago, on my 30th birthday, I woke up after a night of alcohol & drugs and into a hole, a dark night of the soul you might say.
I remember that pivotal moment, knowing that things had to change, & that I was the only one who could change them.
For a number of years, I entered into a deep journey of healing & facing wounds I couldn’t even give name to at that time.
I remember how scary it felt, googling random phrases & questions along the lines of “help” as I didn’t really know where to start.
What unfolded was a kind of blindfolded unravelling, seeking out one stepping stone before the next appeared, following one crumb & then another, working through the mud that was clouding me from who I truly was.
As time passed I took courageous leaps into shifting every area of my life. From quitting my job, to changing community, to moving country. Each decision was a giant jump into the unknown.
In the cocoon of Ibiza, I continued to delve inwards, to heal, to expand, to uncover more layers of myself. Held by the goddess of the island and the soul sisters I found there.
And then one day, about 7 years after the original moment of reckoning, the bubble suddenly burst & I felt I was free. I reached some kind of landmark place where the life force energy I had to put into healing was suddenly released.
Then came the beautiful process of re-integration, of all the old parts before the healing journey began - the rebel, the diva, the dancer, the adventurer, the academic, the activist. I was no longer defined by my past, I was all of the parts of myself together. I had become.
As I step into another year of life, I feel an acceptance, a freedom, & a knowing. The journey out of maiden into a new phase.
To all the sisters embarking on a healing journey, and anyone who needs to hear this: know that the path pays off. Follow the breadcrumbs & you will overcome anything & everything that you have enough courage to face.
Happy Birthday to me, happy Women’s Day to all the amazing women in my life & to every single sister who is brave enough to face their shadows and embrace this wild path.