14/04/2022
It's been quiet here, though bustling behind the scenes. A lesson, or mantra even, that's come forward and that I would love to share with you: I can stay open, even here.
Whether balancing precariously or feeling like my arm is twisted behind my back, I can stay open here.
When my worries outweigh my smiles and it feels easier to crumple up in a ball, I remember that I can stay open, even here.
When my heart aches or pangs and all I want to do is contract, get quiet, and shrink, I let myself feel the vulnerability of it all. And even here, I show my heart that I can stay open.
But why? Why stay open in my heart and body when everything around me tells me to close up?
Well, that's where the wisdom is. From an open mind and open heart is where I am (open) to receive: lessons, gifts, joys.
It's where I get to show my heart & nervous system that, yes love, you are safe here in this body. Yes even when it feels that vulnerable or leaves me that emotional. Yes, even here.
This root chakra level of safety and peace doesn't come from anything outside me. No, the source of strength resides within. The peace is within me. The trust is within me. The discernment is within me. Staying present and open when it feels 'better' to distract, contract, or run away leads me to trust my experience and take a step forward from peace rather than fear.
So even when my breath quickens and my worries spin around my mind, I let it be a practice in presence. Breathing slowly into my heart, I soften my belly, stretch out my arms, and I remember: I can stay open here too.