Bonnie’s Breathwork and Holistic Healing

26/06/2026

This morning, life looks very ordinary.

The grass needs mowing.
Half the fence still needs painting.
My little owl has had a broken beak for years.
I’ve got my slippers on, a cup of tea beside me, and I’m sitting in the garden that’s become my sanctuary.

It’s strange how grief sits alongside everyday life.

The washing still needs doing.
The kettle still boils.
The birds still sing.
The sun still rises.

And somehow, amongst all of that ordinary life, there’s space to breathe.

I’m learning that grace isn’t always found in the big moments.

Sometimes it’s found in the second cup of tea, the sound of the crows overhead, the wildflowers quietly appearing, and allowing yourself to simply sit… exactly as you are.

Nothing fixed.
Nothing finished.
Just here.

And for this morning, that’s enough. 🤍

21/06/2026

Please take the time to read this from my dear friend and colleague.

Three in four suicides are male.
How lonely must a man become before death feels safer than being known?

Today, many men will be celebrated for being fathers, others will spend the day grieving the father they never really had.

Some are grieving a father who died, some a father who was there but absent, and some fathers sit today carrying the unbearable weight of not knowing how to give what they themselves never received.

The bar for fatherhood is higher now than it has ever been, to provide, protect, to be emotionally present, to be strong, but soft, steady but vulnerable.

Many men are trying to build something they were never shown how to make.

A boy learns early what is acceptable.

His tears may be tolerated at five, mocked at ten, and despised by fifteen.

So many boys become fluent in silence long before they reach manhood.

Silence is a strange inheritance.

We have taught men to wear it like a well-tailored suit.

Be solid.
Be strong.
Provide.
Protect.
Hold it all.
Whatever the cost.

But beneath the suit, however sharp it looks, there is often terror. Terror of inadequacy, rejection, dependency, weakness, tenderness.

Our blueprint for masculinity has become unwearable.

Boys growing up today are carrying the weight of their fathers, and their fathers before them.

We have told them to be softer than the men who raised them, yet we shame them when they are.

We ask them for emotional intelligence,
without ever being teaching them how to hold their own emotions.

So many young men wrestle with identity, and why wouldn’t they? The blueprint they inherited contradicts itself at every turn.

Be strong, but not hard.
Be open, but not needy.
Be powerful, but not too much.
Be sweet, but not weak.

Somewhere beneath these impossible expectations, are we surprised they stopped talking?

Perhaps it is our task now, not theirs to say..

Your softness is not weakness.
Your tears tell me you feel.
Your gentleness invites me closer.
Show me your tears, please ….
Don’t hide them ..teach me how to hold them.

Show me your anger, I am not afraid of it..
Let me hold that too…

I am sorry we have taught you to shut up and put up..

To carry pain on your own ..
To perform survival so we could call you strong ..

We must do better…

We must step into THE SPACE BETWEEN US ..
For our boys,
For our men.

Space for tears, space for rage, space for collapse without shame.

Teach us how to hold your tenderness.
Teach us how to stay with you when you let us see your pain.

Teach us how to hold the parts of you
the world told you to bury.

Because how we hold you, will shape the world that comes after you.

14/06/2026

💫PLEASE SHARE💫 If you are struggling, please know that you are not alone.

If addiction, depression, hopelessness, or thoughts of ending your life, are your struggle please reach out. Recovery is possible. Support is available. People care, even when it doesn’t feel like it.

UK Support Services

Narcotics Anonymous (NA)
For anyone struggling with drug addiction.
UK meetings and support: https://ukna.org
Helpline: 0300 999 1212

Alcoholics Anonymous (AA)
For anyone struggling with alcohol addiction.
https://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org.uk
Helpline: 0800 917 7650

Samaritans
24/7 emotional support for anyone in distress.
Call 116 123 free, any time, day or night.
https://www.samaritans.org

SHOUT
Free, confidential text support.
Text SHOUT to 85258

CALM (Campaign Against Living Miserably)
Su***de prevention and mental health support.
Helpline: 0800 58 58 58
https://www.thecalmzone.net

Papyrus HOPELINE247
Support for anyone experiencing suicidal thoughts, particularly young people and those supporting them.
Call 0800 068 4141
Text 88247
https://www.papyrus-uk.org

Mind
Mental health information, support and local services.
https://www.mind.org.uk

Talk to Frank
Confidential drug information and support.
Helpline: 0300 123 6600
https://www.talktofrank.com

We Are With You
Free support for drug, alcohol and mental health challenges.
https://www.wearewithyou.org.uk

Change Grow Live (CGL)
Recovery support, treatment services and wellbeing support.
https://www.changegrowlive.org

NHS Addiction Support
https://www.nhs.uk/live-well/addiction-support/drug-addiction-getting-help

Please know….

Your life matters.
You matter.
And there are many of us ready to walk alongside you.

And if Scott’s story touches something in you, please don’t suffer in silence. We are here, I am here, there’s is always somebody here. Ask for help. Recovery is possible.♥️

If you have a problem with drugs, there's a wide range of services that can help.

13/06/2026

Tuesday, I received the call that so many families affected by addiction quietly live in fear of receiving.

After years of battling addiction and all the pain, shame, guilt and powerlessness that can come with it, my brother reached a point where he could no longer see a way through.

As heartbreaking as that truth is, part of me recognises that after years of feeling powerless over his addiction, this was perhaps the last decision that felt like it belonged to him. 💔

I’ve spent years hoping things would be different. Years praying that somehow he would find his way through. Years believing recovery was still possible for him because I know recovery is possible.

I’ve walked my own path through addiction and found a way out. I’ve seen others do the same. I’ve sat with people in their darkest moments and watched them reconnect with hope, with themselves, and with life.

Which is why I share this.

Not just to honour my brother’s life, but to remind anyone who may be struggling, or anyone who loves somebody who is struggling, that you are not alone.

Addiction is cruel. It doesn’t just affect the person living with it. It touches families, friends and entire communities.

My hope in sharing this is simple. If you are struggling, please reach out. If you love somebody who is struggling, please don’t give up hope.

Recovery is possible.

Scott, I hope you can now see yourself through the eyes of all those who loved you and finally know what we always knew.

You were loved. Deeply. Fiercely. Unconditionally.

I will forever miss you.

I will forever love you.

Love always,

Your big sis ❤️

***dePrevention

07/06/2026

02/06/2026

I’ve been moving away from seeing my body as something that has been failing me and towards seeing it as something that deserves listening to.

That doesn’t mean ignoring physical symptoms or pretending everything is emotional. Far from it.

It means becoming curious about the ways our bodies adapt, compensate, protect and communicate, especially when they’ve been carrying stress, tension, trauma or pain for a long time.

I’ve found that curiosity creates far more space for healing than criticism ever could.

I’d love to know, have there been times when you’ve felt frustrated with your body, only to later realise it might have been trying to help or protect you in some way?

Let me know in the comments, I’d genuinely love to hear your experience.

And if you’re feeling called to explore a gentler relationship with your breath, body and nervous system, my inbox is always open. 💟

28/05/2026

Some deeper reflections that have filtered through over these last few days of integration since returning home from the fast.

It’s interesting what reveals itself when life becomes very quiet and there’s nothing there to distract you from yourself.

I’m still sitting with a lot of it all, still allowing the teachings, the emotions and the experience to settle into my bones a little deeper.

I’d love to know… have you ever had an experience that stripped everything back and allowed you to really see yourself clearly?

24/05/2026

Just arrived home from the five-day water fast and sweat lodge ceremony… and wow, this one really brought me to my edges.

Not in some romanticised spiritual way either. I met the parts of myself that wanted to f*ck it all off! (Hello inner teenager! 🤣)
The parts that felt agitated, uncomfortable, reactive. The parts that wanted to project outward instead of sitting with what was really being asked of me internally.

Physically, it was hard with everything my body is already navigating. But the ceremony reminded me again that this path isn’t about becoming perfect, peaceful or “healed”… it’s about being willing to stay present with yourself in the discomfort rather than abandoning yourself inside it.

And still, amongst all of that, there was so much beauty.

So much love.
So much laughter.
So much deep human connection.

16 of us journeyed together over these last five days, meeting our own edges whilst continuing to hold compassion for ourselves and each other. Some familiar faces who I’ve now shared this ceremony with for four years, and some beautiful new souls that I’m so grateful to now know.

My heart feels incredibly full.

Deep gratitude to Hayley and Darren for holding the lodges and making this possible every year. Gratitude to the earth, the fire, the water, the breath that supported us through the lodges, the prayers, the silence, the liquid light of water that nourished us, and to the Sun for blessing us all week long and to all of you that offered your prayers and support. I appreciate you! ♥️

I’m home now, emotional, tender, exhausted, grateful… and will continue to integrate everything this ceremony has moved within me.

More will come when the words settle a little deeper.

19/05/2026

Tomorrow I step into ceremony.

Five days of water fasting, daily sweat lodge, prayer, community and deep inward reflection.

This will be my fourth year walking this path, stripping away the distractions, the consumption, the constant noise of life, to return to something quieter, simpler and more true.

After spending the last 10 days in service, holding space for others through the breath, this feels like a deeply needed return to myself. A chance to unplug completely, to go off grid, to listen more deeply, to pray, to remember.

And if I’m honest, there has been resistance this year.

Thoughts around my body, my health, my strength. The mind questioning whether I have the capacity to walk through these next five days without the comforts of home and the familiarity of daily life and food!!

But perhaps that is part of the ceremony too.

To meet the resistance consciously.
To sit with the discomfort rather than distract from it.
To remember that beneath the resistance, beneath the noise, there is a deeper reservoir of strength within us all.

Over these next days I will sit with the fire, the water, the earth, the breath and the silence.

Offering prayers into the lodge.
Allowing myself to be emptied a little.
Allowing presence to deepen.
Allowing spirit to meet me there.

And what feels most beautiful is that none of us walk into that lodge alone.

There is something incredibly powerful about entering ceremony in community, hearts open, prayers shared, each of us carrying our own challenges, hopes, grief, gratitude and intentions into the fire together.

May the fire hold our prayers.
May the water carry our surrender.
May the earth steady our bodies
May the breath guide us home to ourselves.
May the silence reveal what noise cannot.

So I’ll be completely off grid until next week and unable to respond to messages and inquiries.

Until then, may we all remember the strength that exists beneath the doubt.

11/05/2026

If you’re new here, Welcome.

My work is rooted in breath, body and nervous system healing.

I support people who are carrying stress, tension, overwhelm, chronic pain, emotional heaviness or a sense of disconnection from themselves.

Through Conscious Connected Breathwork, bodywork, somatic awareness and grounded healing spaces, I help people gently come back into relationship with their bodies.

This work is not about forcing release or fixing yourself.

It is about creating enough safety to listen, soften, feel, breathe and reconnect.

You can work with me through group breathwork sessions, 1:1 breathwork and body sessions, workshops and retreats.

If your body has been asking for a slower, deeper kind of support, you are very welcome here.

You can explore my upcoming sessions and ways to work with me through the link in my bio, or feel free to send me a message if you’d like to connect gently first.