18/05/2026
I got into recovery in 2023 after 20 years of breaking everyone’s hearts around me
I seen hope and wanted to fix everyone , but the problem was not everyone else it was me , a had to fix me before I could help fix anyone else , took me to nearly been sent to prison , rehabs , hospitals and nearly death .
Instead of dealing with my own inner demons I have been trying to deal with everyone else’s
I took 6 months off social media to get back where a am today with a lot heartache, pain , grief
60 days - co***ne , street Va**um and alcohol free ❤️
I was breaking my kids hearts , and everyone else around them , I wasn’t the Paul or dad they knew I was numb and supppresed and broken for months
But days don’t matter if your in recovery we can only be sober a day at time and its took me 3 years to realise that
Today I realise I know nothing but experience and need to remain teachable with my ears open listening to others
If your alive today , you have a chance to bin whatever u have and start again no matter what condition your in
If you’re not dying … start living
This can only be done ONE DAY AT A TIME
NO FASTER NO SLOWER
I will not be back posting for a long time
Wish use all the best and stay strong
