21/03/2022
All I can think about is food.
Old patterns are coming up to test me.
I believe my higher self/the holy spirit/my spirit guides/God/the universe/whatever the f*ck you want to call that incredibly intelligent and wise voice in your head intentionally does this to us every now and then on our healing journeys like:
"Oh yeah, you think you've overcome this challenge? You sure?"
In the past this would have led to compulsive eating and self-hatred out of fear of getting fat.
This time, I take a deep breath, and ask for guidance.
"What is happening? Why do I feel like I need to eat a kilogram of almond butter? What am I pushing down? What am I distracting myself from? What do I need to learn?"
And then I wait.
And an answer comes...
"You're manifesting some big dreams. And you don't get
something for nothing. If you want to create a powerful container for women to heal, we need to know you're solid."
"This doesn't have to be hard. We can help you come through this challenge. But we need to know that you're listening to us. In the hardest moments, will you crack or will you be guided?"
"You need to work on putting too much pressure on yourself, letting go of past relationships, and creating more time for play".
Do you ask for guidance or are you determined to heal by yourself? Let me know in the comments 😘
