29/03/2026
Wombman: Healing shame, self-judgment and pain. 🌿✨
Fresh out of two weeks in isolation with Toècita in the Peruvian Jungle. Toè uncovered the ways I’d been keeping myself safe inside many boxes, and brought up the pain behind those walls for me to feel and heal.
It was revealed to me that I had been holding deep self-judgment, shame, and grief in my womb for years. I had stomached pain and carried on like all was fine because the boxes felt easy and felt 'safe.' Now I understand this only kept a large part of me small, blocking the beautiful, warm, gushy, waters that flow inside. Toè helped me heal all I was holding and release what felt like a heavy chain. 💦
Confining ourselves to these rigid shapes chains a part of our heart; in turn, that affects our expression and creative flow. Toè has been the embodiment of Kali—burning all illusions and beliefs, and turning the ashes into gold. This plant held my hand, guiding me as I stepped into the divinity of my own feminine fire.
Toè is about complete surrender. This plant doesn't mess around—she can cause death just as she can be incredibly healing. Surrendering to everything uncomfortable has been the journey of surrendering into standing in my power.
It was two weeks of not talking to anyone, a snake in my tambo, and heavy purges of trauma and toxins every other night. It was "not knowing," impatience, pain, and blurred vision. It took me totally out of the daydream I've been in—the reality created by my mind—and into the real reality: TRUTH.
To sit with it all required pure discipline, free from distraction. With that came resilience and strength. Now, like Toè, I open my beautiful flower full of light; I let my true essence be known, but not be reckoned with.
I deserve love and respect, and I accept nothing less, as I have learned to give that in totality to myself. I cannot thank this beautiful master plant teacher enough. I bowed, prayed, and surrendered each day, held by Toè's unwavering loving light while being taken into the darkest depths of my soil to make space for new ways.
