09/11/2021
Time to be open and honest! I'm struggling big time ๐ฉ
Charlie is all about Mummy and has been for a few months, and whilst I am soaking in the cuddles it has made running a business at home near impossible. I've been working all-nighters to keep up as well as relying heavily on family - I'm sleep deprived and Sam and I are exhausted!
When I started Botanic & Blush Charlie was a baby napping 3 times a day whilst also sleeping through the night - I had so much time and could create a little play area in my work room which he'd happily play in for hours on end! Which meant I could pretty much focus on Botanic & Blush all day everyday alongside being a Mum.
Fast forward over a year I have a teething toddler that needs his Mum every second of the day, including evenings at the moment as he just cannot sleep without me! If I pop upstairs to sort something he is crying at the stairgate for me, and making soap and bath melts with Charlie present is an accident waiting to happen - hot oils and toddlers do not mix! My brain is full which means I'm forgetting to message people back or mark orders as dispatched which (as a perfectionist) makes me feel like I'm failing.
Charlie isn't talking so in a few weeks we start the process of meeting with professionals regarding speech development.
I want to be present and enjoy this time with Charlie without the ongoing tension of panicking about when on earth I am going to get orders out! The stress has begun causing me some breathing difficulties which I know are entirely panic and stress related.
I have made the decision to close Botanic & Blush from 1st December until possibly next summer to focus on family, make a real dent in our house renovations and plan how to take the business forward. It may well be that I reduce our product range until Charlie is 3 and is able to access funded childcare.
PLEASE rest assured that all commitments already made to create favours for weddings and occasions in 2022 will of course still go ahead ๐
Thankyou SO much for your ongoing support and love for Botanic & Blush and following our journey ๐ฅฐ This is my passion and we will be back bigger and better in the near future ๐ช
Aby x