StubbornLeigh

StubbornLeigh One woman's attempt to navigate chronic health conditions, mental health issues, fitness, family, etc

Finally getting round to listening to  audiobook and make my own decision on it as I am currently sofabound and a little...
04/05/2026

Finally getting round to listening to audiobook and make my own decision on it as I am currently sofabound and a little groggy so audiobooks are the way to go.

She has just shared an adage that stuck with her "If you listen your body when it whispers, you wont have to hear it scream" and my stubborn chronically ill post-surgery self definitely needed that reminder today!!

03/05/2026

"If your pride is louder than your pain"??
Ouch, yep that resonates. Took me a long time to accept that a stick is required sometimes and its an issue that I have when other health related curveballs are chucked at me. I can acknowledge it now, working on it is taking a bit longer

01/05/2026

Turns out that, whilst I am usually ok-ish dealing with the chronic illness nonsense as I know how to manage it for the most part, I am increasingly rubbish at dealing with new illness. Having limited functional hours yet not being able to use them because something else is acting up doesnt feel right and is incredibly frustrating

I've been struggling a lot mentally with my body and its limitations recently.  Lots of "I'm fine, I can do it, there's ...
22/04/2026

I've been struggling a lot mentally with my body and its limitations recently. Lots of "I'm fine, I can do it, there's nothing wrong" etc. The copious amounts of medication, supplements and appointments do kind of point to the contrary so rationally I acknowledge there is still some internalised ableism at play. But whoever said my rational mind was in charge?? Probably not anyone who has actually met me πŸ˜‚

However the fact there was an audible squeal of joy when I realised I was in a room with a shower chair and enough room to do the physio with my stick going in various directions may be telling me something...

Brains are weird things. I am objectively not doing great right now but I can't stop trying to bingo myself πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈTime to...
15/04/2026

Brains are weird things.
I am objectively not doing great right now but I can't stop trying to bingo myself πŸ€¦πŸ»β€β™€οΈ

Time to breathe, reset and try to figure this nonsense out!

We have officially reached the "Lets try anything" stage as there is a gap in medical care in my area, no consultant to ...
12/04/2026

We have officially reached the "Lets try anything" stage as there is a gap in medical care in my area, no consultant to replace one who retired and my GPs have told me fairly candidly that they have no clue what to do with me. I appreciate the honesty but it means I am self managing the best I can and some days that is better than others.

Yesterday was Somatic Soundbath Healing with after it had been recommended. Everything is worth a go at this point. It was weird, not a natural environment for me at all but was relaxing and I believe beneficial. I got restorative sleep last night which is a huge deal for me!

03/04/2026

One of my current favourite disability content creators accurately summing up the difference between fatigue and tired. I'm cocooned in a blanket burrito currently so this feels very relevant

🀬😑😀 all the anger and frustration.   Increased by the fact April 2027 is the guideline ive been given from my local area...
28/03/2026

🀬😑😀 all the anger and frustration. Increased by the fact April 2027 is the guideline ive been given from my local area to have something to replace the consultant who retired almost 2 years ago. Rage is exhausting but actually better for my mental state than getting upset, which is also exhausting

Bad news for .

I'm unable to answer any questions as I have had minimal input/interaction with the Delivery Plan.

I know as much as you about today's announcement πŸ‘‡

It's this sort of a day today where I needed this reminder.  I didnt even overly do much but shutting my hand in the doo...
16/03/2026

It's this sort of a day today where I needed this reminder.

I didnt even overly do much but shutting my hand in the door earlier seemed to essentially short circuit my system and I ended up haemorrhaging energy at a surprising rate.

On one hand, it's fascinating how much I was affected by a small injury but on the other, each new chronic illness curveball is incredibly frustrating.

Ending the day on almost 4 x the amount of pace points I should is not ideal and I will not be surprised if there is a little kickback tomorrow despite me taking every opportunity to rest when I saw my tracker going haywire and felt my body react. But you live and you learn. And the lovely black bruise under my fingernail might remind me to be extra careful for a few days so I will take that as a positive

10/02/2026

Saw this posted in a group im in and, as ive been pretty much bedbound and mostly asleep since Friday afternoon after having the audacity to do some fun things last week, it felt like a good idea to share. I know people in my life dont understand PEM or PENE so this may help. I shall now be medicating then going back to sleep 😴

From Dr Groysman:
You cannot have ME/CFS without PEM. Period.

This gets misunderstood all the time.

Post-exertional malaise (PEM) is not optional in ME/CFS.
It is the defining feature in every modern diagnostic criteria.

No PEM = not ME/CFS.

That does not mean someone is β€œfine” or that their fatigue is imaginary.
You can have severe, life-altering fatigue without PEM.
It just means the diagnosis is something else.

PEM is not:
β€’ Feeling tired during activity
β€’ Being sore after exercise
β€’ Needing a nap

PEM is:
β€’ Delayed symptom worsening (often 12–48 hours later)
β€’ Multi-system crashes (brain fog, pain, flu-like symptoms, autonomic instability)
β€’ Prolonged recovery
β€’ Loss of baseline after overexertion

This distinction matters because:

β€’ ME/CFS management is crash prevention and pacing
β€’ Many Long COVID patients do not have PEM and are more treatable
β€’ PEM often marks the transition from a reversible condition to a fixed disease state

Long COVID can exist without PEM.
ME/CFS cannot.

If PEM is present, prognosis, treatment strategy, and risk profile all change.

Understanding this is not gatekeeping.
It is how we avoid misdiagnosis and missed treatment opportunities. This is also why it it is important not to lump everything into ME/CFS!

The most frustrating thing about this illness (right now at least, it is subject to change) is it is really difficult to...
06/01/2026

The most frustrating thing about this illness (right now at least, it is subject to change) is it is really difficult to tell if you are coming down with something at this time of year if your baseline "is kind of in pain and a little fluey" at best. The cold snap isnt kind to me anyway and I know there are lots of things going around right now, have tried my best to avoid them but dont want to pass anything on if that somehow failed. Opted for a couple of days hermitting and doing what I can(with a little sulking about cancelled plans) and it should be clearer either way by morning.

I was hoping (rather optimistically perhaps) to leave hibernation season this week and actually manage to do things. The snow and possible lurgy have put pause to that for a few days

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