25/07/2026
I have been reading a book that dropped food for thought about relationships and friendships.
I have for a long time kept my friendship circle small.
In the past it was very much guarding my heart from even the possibility of being hurt, and found the more I tried to run, the more opportunities presented itself to break that cycle. For me, and I am only expressing from my heart and this is not advice for anyone, as we are all on our own personal journey of discovery.
But for me, the opportunities gave rise to triggers, which activated in me what we call in shamanism or Stacy's teachings, programmes...self love, self worth, self acceptance and it goes on...
While I can go on about the whys and tribulations of my business name and past journey to get me to this point,
My point today is a simple one, I spent time with a beautiful soul yesterday that has shared my highs and lows the past 4 years, without judgement, acceptance of who I am at this point of my journey and I can say, that that trust is reciprocated, we laugh, we talk and know it goes no further, we hold space for each other.
My friend gifted me her gorgeous closing ceremony, joy sharing food together. laughter, sun and communicating how special we mean to each other...emotional safety is my trigger, if I don't feel held, if I don't feel respected, I've come to realise that my body realises what my heart is holding, before my mind can correlate the feelings, including trusting my intuition - and in the not to distant past, spiked my nervous system into "fight and flight" mode to the point of physical symptoms that I could no longer ignore, which led a deeper level of self awareness, emotional awareness and self care. Even a little trauma bonding, limerance and past trauma looping thrown in there to challenge and question my self worth and boundaries.
In the past I questioned if there was something wrong with me, why didn't I have friendship groups? Maybe I am not kind enough, maybe I am not giving enough, maybe my walls,.my boundaries are just too unrealistic and I need to just help everyone, ignoring my own needs in the process.
This post, while so long, is to say thank you to my beautiful friend and the author of the book, I finally realise the essence of a connection, a true bond and that I am very grateful for.
I am not perfect, I am forever growing and if I let you in, whole heartedly let you in, you are a person I trust and I carry and hold a place of you in my heart unconditionally ❤️
Letting people in has been a journey for me and one I am still working on along with healthier boundaries.
I am very grateful to all that have walked with me, even just for a short while, each one has shaped who I am today and I love who I am and excited about who I will become tomorrow...I love that I take so much pleasure saying hello to the bees, or laughing with someone at the studio, or watching my children talking and laughing together, to blast out music to sing and dance to, to share my treatments, honoured to be a part of their healing journey...life is a joy, a gift and for me an opportunity to shine my magic by being me 🎁
In Peru back in January 2025, my intention on a very powerful day
"To see the beauty in all things, as they are"
I love that intention and one of the blessings I start each and every day with ❤️🌞⭐🌈💗
