24/05/2026
Two days till 45
Gym was a random decision due to the heatwave and using the gift of air conditioning for once.
This reminded me of the blog I always wanted to write, and I will complete it soon.
It will be about weight training and exercise near menopause.
The only time I lifted really heavy was during my Graves’ disease journey. This was also the time when I carried a lot of unhealed frustration, anger, and injustice. It was the intensity of this state, this mental pattern, that helped me perform so well that I managed to reach my best shape ever. On the surface, I looked like someone who trained well, ate well, and was healthy. None of these were true, but I did what helped me survive at that time. Yes, surviving. Maintaining, but not healing.
The muscle gain was a superficial protective shield to keep me safe in an environment where I did not belong. Yes, you heard that correctly.
After healing my Graves’, everything changed. Things started changing as I moved into a safer space to focus on my inner calling. Long story, but here it is if you want to dive in:
https://blog.fht.org.uk/2026/03/09/healing-from-autoimmune-disease/
Near the end of a thorough healing process, I started to tune into my body and get “lazy” as often as I wanted, which was, in reality, resting. Resting after years of hustling, running on anger, cortisol, dopamine, and you name it.
Then I slowly started to regain my fitness. Not the fitness that looks validated and admired from the outside. It was the fitness that kept my body strong, healthy, functional, appreciated, and loved unconditionally. After a long period of untangling the trap I was in, which took time and energy, I needed a pause to see what the next step could be to enhance holistic wellbeing. My next step was exercising carefully while listening to what my body needed, whether it was yoga, Pilates, weights, walking, dancing, stretching, or resting. I just do what it is asking me to do. Not what my mind instructs my body to do, but what my body asks of me.
In the 21st century, in this long era of capitalism, everything has been about achievements, goals, surviving, competing, fitting in, producing, and performing.
But now, it is slowly but surely starting to be about breaking out of this pattern and looking deeper before cortisol comes in and backfires later.
And for the coming hormonal shifts near my 50s, I would love to store a bit of body fat to ensure a healthy transition while maintaining my physical, mental, and emotional health.
So forget the noise, isolate temporary if needed, and LISTEN TO WHAT THE BODY IS ASKING, because loving and appreciating what it has done for you all your life will come back multiplied.
In the end, the body is only a reflection of what is happening within.
Your body is not asking you to perform.
Your body is not asking for motivation.
Your body is not asking for self-criticism.
Your body is asking you to listen.
Enjoy the temporary shapes and shifts of transitioning, because it means healing is in progress. Nothing lasts forever, and if you follow the flow, it will start to radiate from the inside out.
It is the homeopathic glow that I can easily spot on a person by observationsand experience 😀.
.and if you need guidance, you can find more info and my contact on www.renatagabor.com
