19/01/2022
~happy new year! hi hi hiiiii…oh i know it’s been a while, gosh, i’m already tearing up writing this. how is everyone? 🥲
i’ve tried to write this post for quite some time and haven’t stomached the energy to do so but full moon in cancer last night has me attempting to release all fears and worries. i know i’ve practically fallen off the face of the earth and to be completely honest with you, i think my mind, body and soul needed it.
it’s hard sometimes to recognise that the thing you love the most is actually physically and mentally affecting you more than you realise. towards the end of last year i was running on the last ounce of adrenaline. as december rolled around I became so sick, i knew it was my body telling me that the 3hrs of sleep a night and the constant grind was the issue. but that cap moon of mine wanted to persist. unfortunately from that i fell into a bit of a spiral down into a major depressive episode and shut the world off completely to live in my bubble over the holidays and that’s what i did.
it hasn’t been all bad, we actually had a wonderful christmas and got to spend it with our family for the first time in years and the time to rejuvenate has given me a fresh outlook on nirvana and MYSELF and where to go from here…
i know that loving an alchemist who disappears as a coping mechanism isn’t the greatest and i can’t thank you all enough for how supportive you’ve been. waking up this morning and logging in to see so many dms of love made me feel all warm and a surge of fight burned through for the first time in a long time. i am trying to get better, we’re all human and we all learn behaviours that help us survive in crazy environments that as we grow we realise aren’t helping us anymore.
✨ so, im still here, and we are back to work now woo! i’ll be using the rest of the week just to catch up with dms and emails and order updates and we’ll have our FIRST live sale of 2022 next thursday, y’all in for a treat!
your alchemist also has her first therapy session today so wish me luck 💫 im excited to share and grow on this healing journey with you all. sending so much love as always 🌻 I really do love each and everyone one of you!
