04/09/2026
THERE WILL BE A POINT ON THE JOURNEY WHERE WALKING AWAY FEELS LONELIER THAN STAYING.
Walk anyway.
But let's be honest about what that actually takes.
Because walking away isn't always the empowered, beautifully aligned moment we see portrayed on social media.
Sometimes it is fu***ng terrifying.
Sometimes you walk away with your heart breaking.
Sometimes you walk away whilst questioning whether you've made the biggest mistake of your life.
Sometimes you walk away whilst still loving someone.
Sometimes you walk away knowing you will be misunderstood.
Knowing people may believe their version of the story.
Knowing you may be blamed.
Knowing you may lose friends, family, community, security, familiarity and the life you thought you were building.
And sometimes...
you walk away alone.
There can be an enormous amount of energy required just to get yourself to the point where you can stand up and say:
Enough.
Not because you don't care.
But because you finally care about yourself enough.
And that isn't weakness.
That takes fu***ng courage.
There is the worry.
What if I regret this?
What if I end up alone?
What if they change?
What if I was wrong?
How will I cope?
Who am I without this person, this relationship, this job, this identity, this familiar chaos?
And underneath all of those questions can be one of the most painful ones of all...
What happens if I choose myself and nobody comes with me?
That is where the journey can become incredibly lonely.
Because there is a strange grief in walking away from something that has been part of your life, even when you know it is no longer good for your soul.
You can grieve something that hurt you.
You can miss someone you know you cannot go back to.
You can love someone and know that loving them does not mean remaining available to them.
You can understand someone's behaviour and still decide that you will no longer accept it.
These contradictions are not signs that you've made the wrong decision.
They are signs that you are human.
And walking away doesn't necessarily mean you suddenly feel strong.
Sometimes you drag yourself away.
Sometimes you take one tiny step...
then another...
then another.
Sometimes you cry.
Sometimes you turn around and wonder whether you should go back.
Sometimes you sit in the car, on the bed, on the kitchen floor, anywhere you can find a moment to breathe, wondering how something that felt so necessary has become something you need to release.
This is where I think we need to change the way we talk about self-trust.
Self-trust isn't always a feeling of certainty.
Sometimes self-trust is acting despite the uncertainty.
It is saying:
I don't know exactly what happens next.
I don't know how this will unfold.
I don't know whether I have the strength.
But I know I cannot continue abandoning myself to keep this going.
And then you take the next step.
Not because you aren't frightened.
Because you are frightened and you do it anyway.
That is courage.
And perhaps the loneliness that follows isn't punishment.
Perhaps it is space.
Space where there is finally no one else's voice drowning out your own.
Space where your nervous system can begin to settle.
Space where you can hear your intuition again.
Space where you can discover that you are capable of standing on your own feet.
Space where self-trust finally has room to breathe.
And slowly...
the loneliness changes.
It becomes solitude.
Solitude becomes peace.
Peace becomes strength.
And strength becomes something far more valuable than certainty.
Knowing you will not abandon yourself again.
So if you're standing at that point on your own journey right now, I won't tell you it will be easy.
It might be one of the hardest things you've ever done.
I won't tell you that you won't hurt.
You probably will.
I won't tell you that you won't worry.
You probably will.
And I certainly won't tell you that everyone will understand.
They may not.
But I will remind you of this:
You don't need to have the whole path illuminated.
You only need enough courage to take the next step.
Walk anyway.
Your future self may be waiting on the other side of the loneliness to thank you for finally choosing her.
Sometimes loneliness is simply the space where self-trust learns to breathe. π©΅