05/05/2026
There was a moment during my last trip to Brazil, during a 10-day immersion with the Pataxó, when I chose to mark my hands and forearms with jenipapo — the fruit of Genipa americana — not as decoration, but as intention.
In my culture, jenipapo is more than a natural dye. It’s part of ritual — used to prepare the body, to mark protection, to align with spirit and ancestors, and to make intention visible on the skin. The patterns aren’t random; they carry meaning, presence, and connection beyond the physical.
Hands are where we give, where we receive, where we turn feeling into action. Mine have always been open… sometimes too open. And on this trip, I learned that even the sacred can be opened too much — giving without measure, holding space without boundaries, pouring out without asking what returns.
So I chose to protect my hands — not to close them, but to bring balance. To remind myself that giving shouldn’t mean depletion.
The forearms felt just as important. They carry the movement between intention and action — the direction of energy, the strength to hold, and the choice of what I put into the world. The neck, the expression… all connected. Marking them felt like drawing a line of awareness from thought to action — a quiet statement that what moves through me does so with purpose.
I was told that I carry “dark knowledge.” And I understood it as something powerful — the ability to sit with what is unseen, uncomfortable, or unspoken, and still extract what is needed for wholeness. Not everyone is ready for that kind of presence. Not everyone wants to face what lives beneath the surface.
And I saw that clearly.
This painting didn’t change who I was — it revealed it. It held intention, boundaries, and a quiet authority. And that alone was enough to unsettle those who are uncomfortable with a woman who knows what she carries, who gives with awareness, and who refuses to shrink to be more digestible.
So no — it wasn’t just paint.
It was protection.
It was alignment.
It was remembrance.
A reminder:
to give, but not lose myself.
to act, but with clarity.
to hold power, without apology.