28/03/2024
HOLY WEEK
AS I CONNET WITH THE DAILY STORY IN THE GOSPEL PERSONALLY
AND SHARE MY JOURNEY IN LIVING UP TO ITS TEACHING AND MY ENDEAVOUR TO RELATE TO JESUS JOURNEY - IN MY LIFE IN 2024
I am trulY trying to RELATE AND FEEL THE journey with JESUS CHRIST this HOLY WEEK
I FEEL I AM JOURNEYING WITH HOW I AM ASKEED TO BE AS A DAUGHTER OF GOD AND AS A FOLLOWER OF CHRIST….
This may sound a bit out of the ordinary, but my aim has been take the daily reading in the bible and gospel of this week, to connect with the reality of such a human reality and trusting in a belief of a HIGHER SELF, which grows from a belief and trust in God and THE HOLY TRINITY, so that I can live and act from a place of love and find solace and comfort from my belief in GOD.
I AM truly trying to BE what is asked of me in my christian role
I AM always trying to RAISE MYSELF OUT OF THE PHYSICAL PAIN AND TURMOIL of living my SPIRITUAL life in my physical BODY, dealing with EARLY ONSET PARKINSONS OVER THE LAST 30 YEARS AND ALSO THE AFFECTS OF ITS PROGRESSION AND OSTEOARTHRITIS
As many of you know such ailments and disease are challenging and present us with REAL STRUGGLE
AS I WITNESS MYSELF MAKING THIS DECLARATION, I KNOW THAT I AM NOT ALONE
I REALISE THAT MANY OF US ARE STRUGGLING AND DEALING WITH REAL AILMENTS, DISEASE AND ILLNESSES.
ITS NOT AN EASY TASK FOR ANY OF US.
IN MY ROLE AS A PSYCHOTHERAPIST I HAVE ACCESS TO TOOLS AND RESOURCES THAT I PRACTICE AND THEY GENUINELY HELP AND SUPPORT ME TO FEEL USUALLY WELL IN MYSELF and I can and i do share these with anyone who asks for support.
I USUALLY MANAGE TO MAINTAIN THIS STATE OF WELLNESS IN SOME SHAPE AND FORM AND HONESTLY I manage to get a BREAK FROM THE STRUGGLE………
I AM VERY AWARE OF THE CHALLENGE
AND I AM ALSO AWARE OF THE AMAZING GRACE I RECEIVE FROM GOD AS I TRY, IN THESE TIMES OF PRESENCE TO FOLLOW THE GUIDANCE FROM WITHIN MYSELF IN RELATION TO MY PRACTICE, WHICH STEMS FROM MY BELIFE OF A HIGHER VIBRATION IN ENERGY AND FAITH IN GOD.
I AM AWARE OF MY GRATITUDE OF MY BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE FROM GOD
- I ACTUALLY DO RECEIVE FEELINGS OF GREAT JOY AND HOPE….
BUT ITS TOUGH GOING AT TIMES TO MAINTAIN THIS AND STAY SOLID
SOMETIMES I ACT FROM THE BEST PART OF ME, WHO IS TRULY BELIEVING AND RECIEVING from TRUE LOVE FOR GOD
AND SOMETIMES I AM AWARE OF THE DOUBTING FEELINGS AND ACT OUT OF THE
STRUGGLE WITHIN ME FORM MY SHADOW LOWER SELF THAT IS ALSO ME
I AM WRITING THIS PARTICULAR POST in the earl A.M
AND I AM FEELING THE PINCH IN A PARTICULARLY DIFFICULT WAY
I KNOW IN MY HEAD, LOGICALLY AND FROM MY MOST POSITIVE BEST SELF IN MY BODY MIND, THAT I AM OKAY
EVERYTHING IS OKAY
BUT THERE IS A HUGE AWARENESS DEEP IN MY HEART OF MY LOSS AND PAIN
I AM LONGING FOR MY DREAMS AND MY HOPES THAT WERE SWEPT OUT OF MY REACH.
-I AM AT A LOSS AND IN REAL PAIN BECAUSE OF MY LOSS OF KEITH
I AM CHALLENGED FINANCIALLY
I FEEL BIG DIFFICULTIES AND CHALLENGES IN MY PHYSICAL ABILITIES
I CONNECT WITH FEARS ABOUT MY FUTURE
I AM FEELING THE REALITY OF MY LIFE JOURNEY, IN RELATION TO TRYING TO PUT INTO PLACE MY POSITIVE STEPS, THAT WILL ENSURE MY WELLNESS AND WELLBEING.
I AM TRYING TO TRUST THAT MY BELIEFS ABOUT LIFE AND MY SELF WORTH
I HOPE THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO BECOME STRONGER , SO THAT MY CONTINUING PRACTICE OF AFFIRMING WILL REAP REWARDS AND I WILL FEEL THE BENEFIT MORE OFTEN.
I PRAY FOR A BETTER QUALITY OF LIFE AND RELATIONSHIPS.
I TRY TO PRACTICE EVERY DAY THE SUGGESTED WAYS OF CHANGING MY MINDSET AND SELF TALK.
I PRACTICE POSITIVE THINKING AND HOPE THAT THIS BRING ABOUT POSITIVE ACTIONS THAT ENSURE I WILL CREATE ALIFE I LOVE TO LIVE.
I AM SHARING WITH YOU AND SUPPOSE I AM AWARE THAT MANY OF US ARE SIMPLY TRYING - DAILY TO MAINTAIN WELLNESS AND WELLBEING
GUESS WHAT - I ACTUALLY DO ACHIEVE,
WE ACTUALLY DO ACHIEVE !!!! IN TINY MOMENTS AND ITS SO IMPORTANT TO RECOGNISE THESE MOMENTS, SO THAT WE ARE NOT LOST IN THE STRUGGLE OF OUR HUMANESS, SO THAT WE DON’T LOSE ALL HOPE
I REALISE THAT I AM DOING THIS… AND MY HOPE FOR YOU READING THIS, IS THAT YOU REALISE THAT TOO.
BUT I AM UNDER NO ILLUSION OF THE DIFFICULTY THAT IT TAKES SOMETIMES IN THE DARKEST MOMENTS OF MY SOUL, TO CONTINUE TO ‘TAKE THE HAND OF GOD AND ALLOW MYSELF TO “ TRULY LET GO
- LET GOD FULFIL HIS WILL FOR ME AND LET ME BLOSSOM INTO THE DESTINY CREATED ALREADY WRITTEN AND DESTINED FOR ME”……
I CALL THIS MY SOUL ROLE.
After Keith died I believe that my LIGHT and motivation and passion came from living out of a place Of love for my daughter and grandchild at that time.. I also found that Keith in his soul connection, had set up specific loves in his life that I would honour and take care of. In doing so I was taking care of myself and my family.
God works in mysterious ways - SO TRUE.
AFTER MAMMY’S STROKE, AND AFTER A LONG TIME OF PHYSICAL and MENTAL STRUGGLE AND FINALLY ACCEPTANCE OF HER INABILITY ,
IN HER MOMENTS OF FEAR, DISBELIEF, WONDER AND JOY
SHE WAS GIFTED WITH THE ABILITY TO EXPRESS THESE THREE WORDS, THAT I TREASURE,
‘OH GOD ALMIGHTY’
WHAT A TESTIMONY OF A LOVE AND BELIEF IN GOD
IN HER HOURS OF SACRIFICE.
I AM HOPING THAT SHE RECEIVED COMFORT AND SOLACE AS SHE TOO JOURNEYED IN THIS HOLY WEEK,
I GUESS HOLY WEEK IS A LIFE JOURNEY FOR MOST OF US
MAYBE IT IS MEANT TO BE A TEMPLATE IN LIFE FOR US TO LIVE BY.
TOAY IS HOLY THURSDAY
HOW DO YOU RESONATE WITH THE HOLY EVENTS AND HAPPENINGS?
CAN YOU FIND SOLACEBELIEVE IMAGE
AND COMFORT AND HOPE IN KNOWING THAT SUFFERING AND TRAGEDY WILL FINALLY BRING US INTO A RESSURECTION AND RENEWAL
OF EASTER SUNDAY
I HOPE YOU HAVE A DEEP AND FULFILLED HAPPY EASTER - in its trust essence and healing.
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