12/05/2021
We had a great weekend! We were so happy to be able to have a safe birthday party for her. It was small with just our family and a few close friends, but the best part was that we felt all of the love for Violet! Our rainbow baby is officially 6! Then Mother’s Day we made brunch for my family, relaxed in the hot tub and played Mario Party as a family and laughed a ton!
This week to be honest, I know my emotions are all over the place. Violet’s birthday 5/4, Mother’s Day, and now today it’s been 7 years We’ve had to live without Ollie. 7 years since we took him off of life support. 7 years of wishing he was in my arms, wondering what he would look like now, and with our new home, realizing that no matter how perfect our new home is, I’ll always feel like there’s just a little something missing... it’s him.
My first thought this morning was back to this very day 7 years ago. I woke up with a pain in my chest and tears in my eyes preparing to let my first born go to heaven. I’m sad right now. It’s not even 7 am and I’ve already cried multiple times. But the thing that gives me strength is my promise to Ollie to live for him, the love from my family and friends, and the support I have from my Hayden's House of Healing family. I couldn’t be more grateful for that!
In honor of Oliver today, please consider donating to Haydens House of Healing and light a candle tonight for our baby boy.
“You are my angel, my darling, my star... my love will find you wherever you are.”
