Happy, healthy, life, lover

04/03/2022

I've been feeling as if I'm coming into a cocoon phase of life and shedding parts of the old me, so I can embrace the new me.

The me that owns my power as a valid human and not the me that gives up my power and searches for validity in my relationship/relationships. Intimate relationships, family relationships, and friendships.

It took me a long time to admit to myself that that was one of my biggest realities holding me back. Keeping me in "victim mode".

It's also one of the scariest to face because I have to dig very deep to a very young me that learned that conditioning at a very young age.

I was conditioned to not trust myself and that I was not worthy of so much.

Long story shorter, I used to go into the woods to cry and get my emotions out in private. Write my whatever list out or do my workouts to feel better and then go about life.

I have recently shifted my time in nature. I now go, yes to feel emotions but to also consciously connect with the earth and myself.

Now instead of asking myself things like "what did I do wrong?" And other petty "somethings wrong with me" types of damaging self doubt, power giving up, debilitating and helpless types of things...

I have been asking:

"What is my body trying to tell me?"
"Where are my feelings coming from?"
"What needs to be healed?"

Grounding and meditating on soaking up the energies of the earth.
(Ya know hippy stuff ✌️) 😉

That was a great shift but after talking with a friend and integration coach she helped me see that I was still giving up my power by trying to still controll my emotions.

Now I still ask myself these questions but also add:

"What is my soul seeking to learn from this?"
And
"What is my HEART trying to tell me?"

Then instead of being in my head, I just sit in stillness and observe.

Hearing that we cannot control our healing (even though I have said it... 🤦‍♀️) But hearing it from someone to me at the right time turned on a light bulb. 💡

Happy Friday All! Own your power and come from Love not anger or fear. ❤

I AM WELCOMING MY COCOON STAGE! 🦋

11/02/2022

Tulum is such a beautiful place. Nestled in the jungle, home to tons of Iguanas and birds.

I am so thankful we were able to explore these ancient grounds after our retreat (more on that later, when I have the words).

I have always been fascinated with ancient ruins and the Myan's. So for me this trip was a dream come true and I WILL go back!

19/01/2022

"We need the tonic of wildness... at the same time that we are earnest to explore and learn all things, we require that all things be mysterious and unexplained orrible, that Land and Sea indefinitely Wild, on survey and unfathomed by us because unfathomable. We can never have enough of nature."
Henry David Thoreau

Great quote my beautiful friend shared.

To me nature is church for the soul. A connection to something much bigger than ourselves.

These pictures were from my first longer, get in the woods hike, that I've done alone. 7.1 miles 2,907 ft elevation. Talk about sweaty! 🙌😁

Sure I go up to the Ridgeline by myself and I'll take much smaller mountain hikes alone. However, I hunt these mountains and I have been alone with a bear not too far from where I was sitting on the hood of my 4 runner.

Where I hiked yesterday we know for a fact there are "all the things". lol

I have lived here for 7 years and one thing after another has kept me from hiking to the top of this mountain. Pregnancy. Surgeries, babies, colds.... you name it!

So for me to do this hike alone.... Was a big deal. May seem lame to others but for me it was quite empowering! Yes I had a big stick and something that goes "pew pew".... But it wouldn't have stopped a bear!

So to be the "girl, alone" (life's conditioning) was quite empowering!

*I do not recommend just anyone go wandering in the woods alone without what would be needed incase you get turned around. This is very easy to do and I did it once yesterday. Thankfully I know how to read a topographical map and had just missed my trail by 2 feet! It was hidden by bushes. So know how tonread a map! Have enough water! Have protection! And have fun! If you'd like to go and feel alone but not "be alone" go with a friend and just walk distanced from each other, until you're more comfortable.

As a female life has told me I can't on so many levels. Yesterday was one of those days where I refused to let the day take my self care time away.

Making myself a priority with a fierce passion this time! ❤ My goal loving myself positively again. 🧘‍♀️

That last pic was how happy I was when I was done, just in time!

15/01/2022

"When you judge yourself, you simply reinforced the very thing you judge.

When you can love even the part of you that is judging, then healing can happen and it's easier to practice self-compassion."

"Judging isn't the issue but your relationship with the judging is the real issue.
When you stop making about the Judgment, your relationship with the judging itself shifts. Then a space for Freedom opens up and there is room for something to shift.
What sometimes happens is we notice ourselves judging ourselves, and then we get angry for judging ourselves. You are judging you're judging. Judging yourself serves nothing only to keep you stuck in a cycle of judgement.
When you judge yourself, you simply reinforced the very things you judge. You will find that the more you judge, the more stuff you may become." 🤔


This post hit home and I recommend reading Kute's entire caption. I believe he is one hundred percent right when he says this is us bullying ourselves.🧐

When we do this we are bullying ourselves from within to either stay stuck or to encourage ourselves to change.

I am a pro at doing this. I have learned and came to the understanding that this is from our lifes conditioning. The outside world, our relationships with family, friends, and mostly now for me our spouses/intimate partners.

That constant "if I could just be better at.....", "if I could just look better in......" then (insert your desired out come here) (ex. He'd love me more, she'd love me more. He'd have time for me/she'd have time for me) whatever it may be.

This Is us holding ourselves hostage from being able to truly love ourselves and keeps us over loving on others to fill a void or will keep us prisoners of our own mind.

Only when we come from a place of love from within for ourselves will we be able to make those shifts in life we desire or crave.

When we make the decision to love ourselves and to break these Cycles, it will become a fire like craving. Once we find this love for ourselves, then it will spill out to those safe loved ones and the world around us.

This must come from within.

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31/12/2021

It was a different kind of year that is for sure! We are in our final hours of 2021. What are some things you were thankful for in 2021?

Mine, was lots of sun and warm weather! 😁

02/11/2021

Halloween shenanigans! So thankful we all were healthy by Saturday to enjoy the Halloween party the kids had not forgotten about and for all the Halloween day fun!

🎃

26/10/2021

Not feeling great with a headcold the Littles brought home for me and wishing I could sit in some vitamins D...
I feel like this is going to be a loooong cold winter this year! I know it is needed for so many reasons but that warmth from the sun tho...... My skin misses it!
For now I will fall back on my vitamins and I'll meditate myself into a sunny place. 🤷‍♀️🧘‍♀️🌞

07/10/2021

21/09/2021

How do you get your veggies in? 🤔

How do you get your kids to eat them? 🤔

Questions I get a lot.

I have ALWAYS given my kids veggies. So I think that may be How I don't have too hard of a time getting them to eat them.

I try new veggies with them and make note on what they like versus what they don't like. When I find one they like a certain way I put that one in the mix regularly and add some with it that is new. This way even if they didn't like the new, they'll still eat the ones they like.

I know that our plates should be half vegetables and then everything else splits what's left of the plate.

This was difficult for a while with different changes that have gone on in life but this sheet pan has brought knew life to their love of veggies! Now they are requesting this more often and with more of certain veggies over others. AAAAAND it's sooo easy to make!

I like to put the sausage on top of the veggies so the juices drip down. I think it's best over the potatoes, mushrooms and broccoli. However it's great over all of them.

I start with the potatoes and have them cooking a little while I prep everything else. Then mix everything separately with some olive oil and Italian seasoning while I brown the sausage but not fully cook it.

Then bake until the veggies are done. Pretty simple and perfect for a busy school night!

Mia and Bailey have fought over the sausage and Mia and Lilly have fought over the broccoli.... The hubby requested more of everything and the boy eats all of it without talking so much. 😆😁

30/08/2021

Sometimes a break from routine is the very thing you need.

Great day trip to the redwoods and coast with one of my best friends visiting with her family from Tennessee.

Someday I will go visit them. Just not in their storm season..... 🤪🌪

These trees always have me in wonder feeling like a kid again and watching the kids run and laugh and play was the perfect finish to the day.

26/08/2021

"The earth has music for those who listen." William Shakespeare

I'm sad by all the fires but when it settles in between the mountains like this I can't help but see the art.

26/08/2021

I am soooo going to miss these days. 😍

Him being small and our summer days in the sun.

Who has figured out the secret to slowing down time? 🤪