04/03/2026
Happy good glorious Friday! ☀️🙏🏼🌷✨
40 days and 40 nights unplugged from the social media matrix and ohhh what sacred beauty unfolded.... 🦋🕊️💕
Growing up in church was the rhythm of my life. From Church of God to Apostolic, and back again to Church of God traditions, my early faith was formed within the structure and teachings of those communities. Yet as I moved into my late twenties, my spiritual walk with Christ began to deepen outside structures beyond doctrine, dogma, and the legalities of religion. My relationship with God became more personal, more intimate, more alive.....
Interestingly, Lent was never something that was in my spiritual practice. I grew up believing it was simply a “Catholic tradition,” and because of that, I never felt drawn to explore it further, so was not part of my framework of faith.
Yet this year, in my own quiet walk with Christ, Lent arrived in a very different way.
I began to feel a deep inner nudge, a gentle but persistent invitation to remove something from my life in order to make space for something greater. Soon after that stirring began, an article about the origins of Lent appeared on my feed. I had never spoken about it out loud to anyone. It had only lived in my thoughts, in quiet reflection. Yet there it was, appearing almost as if placed before me at the exact moment I needed clarity. And suddenly it made sense.
Historically, long before Lent was shaped within Christian tradition, many ancient cultures experienced a natural season of fasting toward the end of winter. During this time of year, food stores from the previous harvest were often running low, and people lived more simply until spring brought new growth and renewal. It was a season of restraint, reflection, and preparation for rebirth.
Something within that rhythm resonated deeply with me. The message became clear: remove something in order to create space for deeper presence.😇
I had been feeling a strong yearning to be more intimately present with God in my daily life. Yet at the same time, I noticed how constant connection to social media left me feeling strangely disconnected from the deeper presence I desired. So I understood my invitation.
For this season of Lent, I chose to step away from social media and also remove sugar. Sugar was not a huge indulgence in my life, but enough that letting it go felt like an intentional act of clearing and refinement. I wanted clarity. I wanted deeper discernment. I wanted to be fully present in the present to fully taste the rich delicious nectar of sweetness in the preciousness of this spiritual human journey.
Ten days in, a well of emotion rose up from within me that I could no longer ignore. Feelings I had long carried quietly began to surface. Tears flowed freely as I allowed myself to sit with them, rather than pushing them aside. Instead of resisting, I leaned in..... ohhhh my oh my.... And there, in the sacred space of feeling it all, I found God, so gracious so loving,in the fullness of compassion, mercy, and holy goodness working through me....
It was overwhelming in the most beautiful way. Love. Peace. A deep, knowingness felt in the core of my soul. An unwavering joy filled every part of my being as I allowed myself to be fully present with my emotions in the presence of God. This was alignment. This was a regulated nervous system tuned into the Holy Spirit.....
During this time unplugged, I was gifted with spending more in nature coupled with intentional time in prayer and mediation. I also used N.E.T. therapy as a tool to help process and release what was surfacing.... Through that work, I was able to gently uncover and let go of emotions that were never truly mine to carry, as well as old patterns that were no longer serving my growth.....
I allowed myself to feel it all with flow and breath. Somatic movement. Mindfulness. The integration of my yoga practice got even sweeter. Through energy work and presence the union of my mind, body and spirit felt it into my cells, all is well with my soul.
These modalities are medicine. Humbled by what came to the surface. Firm in my faith unified in grace. Facing what is with truth. Loves fullness felt, simply in the awe and wondrous presence of gratitude for my beautiful ohana and life.
This journey has allowed me to feel the transition of this season of life. Accepting the reality of empty nesting. Feeling immense happiness in my children, while simultaneously missing the fullness of our ohana all together under one roof. Processing the quiet grief of no longer feeling as needed in the same ways. Even allowing myself to revisit emotions rooted in my childhood and family history. To grieve, to forgive, to be seen, heard and loved. Oh wow, and witnessing my parent's decline.....
Instead of avoiding my feelings, I welcomed them. I felt them fully so they could finally move through me.
What emerged was something deeply sacred: a beautiful love story with myself. A returning home to my own heart in the presence of God. A reminder that healing happens when we allow ourselves to be fully present with what is.
I sit with tears of joy over flowing and love so entrenched in every particle of my being for all that this beautiful life has gifted me with. I am loved. I am love embodied. Not only by others but by the presence that dwells within me. I get to experience the totality of LOVE! 💓
And then, in the most tender way, life affirmed the journey.
The very next day, our ohana grew by two precious little feet. My daughter needed me, and because I had created space in my life during this Lenten season, I was able to be fully present for her. I now have the joy of supporting her through this tender season of motherhood with two little babies. Oh what a special gift!
I can see how this time has become something far deeper than simply giving something up. It has been a season of profound soul growth, healing, and expansion. A weaving together of unconditional love, wholehearted authenticity, and deeper embodiment of God’s presence in my life. A rebirth!🌱⚡️
And my heart whispers with gratitude for this journey , I have come into a deeper realization of truly knowing God source, Almighty breathing the preciousness through each cycle and stage of life. Cherished and valued, living wholeheartedly!
As a Cancer by nature, I deeply embody the nurturing spirit. Caring for others, creating spaces of warmth and belonging, and offering love through service has always been a natural expression of who I am. It is woven into the very fabric of my being. My life's Dharma.
For many years that nurturing energy was poured into raising my children their friends and our friends as extension of our family. Our home has always been full of life… dinner conversations around the table, shared stories from the day to day, routines, and the sacred rhythm of family under one roof with openness to our tribe and community.
Now my children are grown, building beautiful lives and families of their own in different cities. While my heart overflows with excitement and love for them, this season of life naturally carries a shift. The dinner table is quieter, the house holds a different kind of stillness, and the mothering role begins to evolve. Yet the nurturing within me remains.
In this sacred season of life, watching my children become parents, and honoring my own parents and in-laws as they savor each tender moment my heart awakens to the profound preciousness of it all. Tears fall full of love, for from the first breath to the final exhale, life reveals its quiet, unwavering truth: we are here to love. Love one another!
Love is the essence.
Love is the thread.
Love is the home we never truly leave. And in every beginning and every becoming, we are so deeply, endlessly loved.
This divine love simply expands outward. My ohana extends beyond my children and folks into my tribe… my sisterhood… my friends. My community. It brings me deep joy to gather with other; showing up, opening up, sharing meals prepared with loving care, sitting together in intimate spaces of connection and experiencing life to the fullest with one another. In these special sacred moments sharing openly, heart to heart, vulnerably and authentically, witnessing one another in our humanity is the kind of sweetness I love!
The self realization through this internal reflection sparks something tender within. Part of this nurturing spirit has been connected to a quiet inner feeling to be needed… to feel seen… to feel loved. This awareness was illuminating. Because through deeper time in prayer and honest conversation with God, I was reminded of a greater truth. I am loved in the purest ways.... I am the divine expression of love as a sovereign being beautifully and wonderfully made!
A sacred knowing that has always lived within me, even when my human mind forgets in the hustle and bustle of day-to-day living.
Yet when I become still and intentionally pause in the Divine Presence, I am able to truly feel it and embody it. Oh how immensely thankful and grateful I am for this steadfast, relentless love that breathes life into every particle of what makes me, authentically me!!
And in this remembering, my soul is graciously tuned in and tapped in to the infinite field of Christ fully alive!! Ahahah the intimate communication.... This holy presence within me fills every space, every particle, every breath of my being. To be immersed in this wholeness… to feel the living presence of God breathing within my mind, body heart soul and spirit… I am, that I am!
This is living blissfully soulful, heaven on earth here, and now!!
May every moment that I have living and breathing on this earth be to hug my loved ones a little more to experience the sweetness of life a little more and to be ever present in the presence embodied, integrated and aligned with thy will be done, loving and caring in servitude as a beacon of blissful light!! ⭐️🔥
Namaste! The light in me sees and honors the light within you as the deepest authentic expression of love!! 🌞💖🙏🏼🌟💝💫
