12/02/2025
My latest creation. Its a work in progress as you can see. As am I.
This started out with an image of me feeling small but radiating vibrations, all around me to offer love, strength, happiness, peace, and much more to everyone around me.
My little body/image here is not colored in because I tend to feel that I sometimes deplete myself by what I give away. It’s OK because I understand that there is abundant love that I am refreshed with from my creator, which knows when I needed it the most.
THE BIG PICTURE HERE IS:
Although it began as me vibrating, love outwardly…
Once I made the little black-and-white lines between the vibrations
IT TRANSFORMED INTO SOMETHING MORE LIKE AN EPIPHANY…
I see it now as an image which I took on or assigned to myself in this lifetime.
THE ROLE
As the caretaker for everyone elses joy & peace…all too often abandoning my own preservation.
I am hypersensitive to acknowledging needs of others & jumping in to rescue them.
YES, I KNOW….
 that is a trauma response from early childhood. I understand that 100%.
I was once told by a therapist that your very first childhood memory tells you who you are in this lifetime.
Which mine definitely did!!!
I was 3.
Without going into all the details,
A very frightening and traumatic thing was happening in my home, and I ran to my mother to save her from the situation. I clung to her leg and refused to let go until I felt she was safe again.
I was a toddler & acted upon my gut instinct.
I threw myself into a dangerous & frightening situation to protect her without hesitation.
I naturally assumed
MY ROLE
at that moment.
I’ve clung onto this role for the past 52 years.
Not just for her sake, but for anyone that I love.
I not only go to battle for them, but I do everything in my power to get ahead of uncomfortable situations.
I am a master at thinking and getting ahead of a situation to try to avoid catastrophe.
I am always 10 steps ahead and insanely over assessing what could go wrong!
This has equipped me with having a plan in place before one is needed.
I play this role as a mother, as a wife, as a friend & as an interior designer.
IT’S WHO I AM.
IT’S WHAT I DO.
My epiphany is that
Possibly, it’s not my job to take care of everyone else.
What if it is their job to take care of themselves and I just impose my strength and wisdom into their situation when trying to help them get ahead of the catastrophe I see coming towards them?
I know I can’t say everyone. I know I can’t always stop things from hurting others.
But I have always said that my super power is love and I come equipped, wearing the cape at all times.
Honestly, I don’t know who I am if I were to retire the cape and this role I have been assigned.
All that I know is how to love and protect. How to guide with wisdom. How to offer my strengths to others.
I don’t see this role as one that is necessary to retire from. I just am beginning to understand that not everyone needs a hero. Sometimes those that do, may not know they do!
