01/06/2026
Day +110
Our final week here in Seattle!!!! YIPPEEE!!
We had our final regular appointment this morning and we have a closing conference meeting and pulmonologist appointment on Thursday and then we get to trek home! Woohoo!! 24 Hour+ drive with a two hour time change! š¤Ŗš We are excited trucker Papa Jerry and Grandma Marilyn are flying out tomorrow to drive us home! Weāre hoping to truck straight through and get home late late Friday night!
Iāve been struggling this week with all the emotions! We are so so so excited to go home!!! But this change makes me so anxious also all the same!!! We have been so blessed in our time here! How lucky are we that God provided comfort in a place far from home that makes it so hard to leave! We have been in such an isolated bubble from the real world. Oaklyn still canāt go in public places, be around people unless they are healthy, has several med alarms ā° a day, all kinds of cleaning guidelines, and has several other restrictions. Weāve got into a good routine here and the change up is a bit scary for me! How to ensure we keep her safe and healthy at home during high viral season with new exposures and big sisters and dad bringing germs in from the outside world that sheās been so protected from. It will be new learning for us all! With lots of hand-washing and clothing changes š¦ lol Oaklyn still has very little TCells and lymphosites so not much of an immune system yet. Less than a newborn still as newborns have inherent immunity from their moms. She does not. She also still has bronchiactasis and inflammation in her airways and lungs yet. & we are still struggling with GVHD as they try to wean her Steroids down.
I have so many questions as to all the dos and donts for her. & what changes we all need to make to limit the exposures at home coming in from big sisters too while not restricting their normal lives too much. I also have been struggling a bit with going back to ānormalā without things being ānormalā. I know all these restrictions are needed and necessary, but I think naturally we like to think/hope that going back home is back to our normal! However I think that is likely going to take quite a bit more time while still on the immune suppression and isolation protocol. Then I have the concerns about processing through all the emotions and changes at home. Weāve all spent a lot of time apart. Nearly 6 months š¢ what kind of emotions we will deal with being all back together again and navigating/relearning how to mesh all our schedules together. & getting back in a good groove for all of us at home! Change is always hard. Especially for us creatures of habit!
I know Oaklyn has been feeling this all too as she is so excited to go home, but she will also miss this place too. I wanted to share some transparency into all the feelings/emotions.
However I donāt want to undercut our excitement! We are also so excited to be home!! We canāt wait to get to snuggle with our whole family! Canāt wait to sleep in our own beds! & take a bath in our bath! & cook and eat the foods we usually have at home! Also excited to hopefully see some familiar faces! Even if it may be from afar or outside! Or with masks on šš·
We are ready to rip the bandaid off and get it over with and get home!!
The new year always brings time for extra reflection. We have been so blessed throughout this past year. Although this year has been one of the most trying, it has also been one full of tremendous blessing. How lucky are we to be able to have an opportunity to put Oaklynās health troubles hopefully behind her permanently! Iāve tried to focus throughout this journey as to what God has been trying to show us and teach us throughout this all. & several things come to mind. First, we can do hard things! & hard things are SO MUCH easier with the right mindset. Iāve found that starting our days with Praise (we jam to our fav Christian tunes) and devotion time in Godās word helps us have a lot better days! We try Filling our cup first with Jesus before the world starts attacking from all angles lol
I also enjoy listening to Ed Mylett (motivational speaker) & he talks of how we can make hard things easy and get good at doing hard things. Truthfully, I feel we have gotten rather good at doing hard things! Even when big battles or obstacles come, it seems to not rock the boat and our peace too much. I feel like we got really good at doing hard things after Oakieās first year of life. I can honestly say nothing in this transplant journey, nor being away from home ever compared with the fear and obstacles of that first year. I think because we were mentally prepared for it and bc hard things get easier to handle!! Ed Mylett describes it like jumping in a pool. When ur 4ish years old and you jump in a pool the very first time it is beyond scary and really hard. Then the second time you are less scared and more prepared. And by the third and fourth time youāve got it figured out, no problem! We can do hard things! & we can get good at managing hard things!! & another big part of that is for things we donāt feel like we can manage, letting Go and Letting God! We canāt navigate on our own, or I sure wouldnāt want to! We are meant to lean on the Ultimate Counselor and our Loving Father. In Him, we do find peace and comfort.
I think another big thing we have learned from our time here is eliminating outside distractions and focusing more on what matters. It has been so nice to not have all the busy-ness of life constantly (birthday parties, have to be here again this time, here at this time, this meeting, this appointment, this playdate, this gathering, this event, etc etc.) our lives are normally so busy and it has been such a welcomed break to leave all of that behind for the last 6-ish months. My goal is to continue to be more intentional about saying No and doing less ābusy-nessā. We have found we so much more enjoy our time outdoors just walking and soaking in the beauty of nature or playing board games at home. I am praying that even in returning home I can set better boundaries of all our time to continue to focus on the beauty around us and enjoy the present rather than juggling so much chaotic busy-ness!
I am so thankful for this journey and all it has taught me. I believe it has really changed us. & I do believe that was Godās intention in it all all along. Sometimes we have to be removed from our ācomfortā to get close to our ultimate Comforter and Healer. We are so thankful for all the many blessings and prayers that have been sent our way. We pray we can continue to bless others and that hopefully in sharing all of these things & emotions we can help others as well.
See you soon NE/SD! š¤©š