02/06/2021
“please, will you marry me?” -
5.29.21
on our way out the door of our Santa Fe airbnb (on our way to “dinner”) logan grabs the waterbottle, purse and banana that i had just started to peel from my hands and piles them on the ground next to the door.
“the ants are going to eat my banana!” i exclaim.
he takes my hand and walks me to an open area a few feet away. i hear ophelia by playing from a speaker. logan looks around, asks if i hear our music and draws me in close with tears in his eyes.
“i was going through our (couples) journal and i just feel bad that this has taken 8.5 years.”
i hug him tighter. “it’s ok. we’re happy, healthy, alive. that’s all that matters,” i say as a tear rolls down my right cheek, assuming this was just a really sweet moment of connection.
he begins to slow dance with me and then says, as he reaches into his shirt pocket, “and that’s why...”
at this point, i more or less black out.
he kneels and holds a ring out towards me.
i sob, and then crouch to meet him for a hug. i just want him closer.
i definitely said yes, but in my overwhelm of happiness and shock i don’t remember what it sounded like. i’m pretty sure my body language said it all.
out of the corner of my eye, i see someone in a green dress and hat move closer to us with a camera. i say, “is that ashley??” (our photographer friend from denver that’s taken our photos over the years).
she comes towards us to give hugs and our airbnb host greets us with champagne as i’m still in shock trying to process what just happened.
i keep reaching towards logan, wanting to hold him and thank him.
, i’ve been unbelievably lucky to be your first love and adventure buddy since senior year of college. together, we’ve evolved in ways we never expected. we’ve grown together as a couple, with intention, and as humans individually. with you, i feel a love and partnership so equal, nourishing and pure that i have never felt before. you’re my best friend and have always been my life partner. it’s always been you. i’m over the moon excited and humbled to have shared this moment with you and to keep sharing forever and ever.