08/04/2025
Throughout my life, I have weaved in and out of many communities, dancing on the outskirts of each, afraid to truly be seen or steady in any of them. I’ve always felt different, misunderstood. As I struggled with bouts of anxiety and depression along the journey, I pulled away from community even more. There was a time where I was truly frightened by people, afraid that everyone was going to hurt me. Yet, something in me yearned for that sense of belonging. Only over the last couple of years have I felt ready to seek community again after spending time re-discovering myself.
Becoming part of the Golden Womb and attending this retreat felt like a full circle moment, a true initiation into this new chapter of life where I know I’m ready to be part of community again. The sense of safety and belonging that I felt this weekend was surreal, it felt like coming home. It also brought to light the areas where I’m still healing and need to let go of the past stories that are no longer serving me.
I now see community as adding more abundance to my life. I see myself as belonging to many different communities, although I must say this one holds a special place in my heart. As a space that allows me to breathe and relax into my authentic self more and more every time I enter it.
I’m still and will always be a work in progress. I acknowledge that there are still parts of me that are afraid of being fully seen in all of my wildness. I am devoted to continuing to unravel these parts until the only thing left is raw and untamed. I am ready to enjoy the sweetness and fullness that life has to offer.
I feel hopeful that more inclusive, synarchic spaces like this will be part of the society that we are all building together. I trust that all will unfold exactly as it is meant to.