09/06/2026
This week has been rough
I have not been in the gym. I have been resting, allowing myself to process things.
I got back into the gym this morning. Killed a heavy full body weight session. Not because I feel like I had to. It’s because I get to 💪🏻
A lot of you have been sending me DMs and commenting on my posts checking in on me and telling your stories. I cannot tell you how much that has lifted my spirits this last week. This community keeps growing and I am so so so grateful for each and every one of you 🥰
I am overwhelmed with gratitude lately - which, oftentimes I feel like I don’t deserve what I have. It’s my brain doing what brains do.
I was texting with my bestie John, one of my OLDEST and DEAREST friends, this morning about what has been going on and he said something to me. He said “trying to break a diamond that has been under pressure for a while is pretty damn impossible”. That stopped me dead in my tracks. I love him so much for those words.
I have been under pressure the majority of my life. And most people, other than a VERY select few, that know me - even family - have absolutely no idea what I have been through. And that’s ok. I don’t need to be understood by anyone. It is not my responsibility to handle or carry how other people feel about me. It is their responsibility to sit down and understand why they do.
Understand that you never have to explain yourself to anyone. Your journey is your journey. Your traumas are yours to heal from. And healing looks very different from person to person.
Consequences of healing are a thing, and once you get to the level that I am at - you can absolutely handle those consequences with every truth that you have in your being.
I can be at peace with those consequences - and I am.
Know that if you are going through something like this, recognizing the consequences of your decisions and being at peace with them can exist at the same damn time. Do not guilt yourself. Do not wallow. Know that you are doing exactly what the universe has set out for you to do, and allow yourself to keep healing ❤️🩹