09/06/2024
A story told by an aging woman...for anyone that needs to hear this...I believe in YOU.
Little Did You Know
Little did you know that at my younger age I was gripping on to anything I could (including lies, addiction, stealing, etc).
Little did you know that everything that I knew & loved (EVERYTHING, including the pieces that seemed ok, they WERE NOT) changed when the rug was ripped from under our feet.
Little did you know that I didn’t know how to take care of a family and pick up everyone’s pieces when I was 17.
Little did you know that when you said (or wrote on my wall) negative things about me, I was doing everything I could to escape my hurt…this hurt even more.
Little did you know that I didn’t know how to navigate my sadness & hurt…neither did they.
Little did you know that I lived for 2 beings that were not mine but love them like they were.
Little did you know that I made s**t up, even lied, to make up for what I felt, I lacked.
Little did you know that I felt that my life wasn’t worth ANYTHING (except 2 kids kept me alive).
Little did you know that my dreams were lost in responsibility that was not mine.
Little did you know that my support system was full of depression.
Little did you know that my addiction was the only thing that made me feel accepted (because then I wasn’t such a disappointment, I was being social/cool).
Little did you know that I hid in my apartment and attempted to take my life more than once.
Little did you know that I wanted to take my life to ease your anger towards people like me.
Little did you know that I did have people that believed in me & loved me enough to set me free.
Little did you know that I knew my heart enough to take a leap of faith.
Little did you know that my old heart still hurts and that hurt still affects my daily adult life.
Little did you know that I would pick up the pieces of my brokenness and create a life worth loving and living again.