01/31/2024
For all of you who know what is going on in my life here is an update. My body did not handle the trauma well. I have been living with excessively high blood pressure, excruciating pain, and major depression. Neither I haven’t wanted to see anyone or speak to anyone, nor have I been able because even positive stress would make my body very ill. Yesterday, I finally received meds. I am trying desperately to not over do it with this new energy while my body adjusts. There isn’t much anyone can do but pray. Hopefully within the next couple of weeks I will be able to feel and handle things again. As many of you know Calvin and I were true soulmates. Even though we were together for only 4 years, we were connected in a heavenly way and I lost the best thing this side of heaven. He would have been 45 on this past Monday. I can only hope his heavenly party included the best of foods as that was his love language. My whole life feels out of control. I pray now that meds are helping I can begin to grasp control back one thing at a time. The human body can only handle so much trauma and mine has met its limit. Thank you for all the love and prayers. Maybe someday I will share my story again not only for those of you who don’t understand some of my comments but also for those who need to see the reality of the love of Christ when the world says you are not worthy.
