04/13/2026
Someone told me to forgive him. Said it like my healing depended on it. Said it like I owed him something even after everything he took. I sat with that for a long time because I genuinely believed them. I thought there was something wrong with me for not being able to get there. I thought my inability to forgive meant I was stuck, bitter, broken.
Nobody told me that was a lie they sell to survivors to make the person who hurt you more comfortable. Forgiveness has nothing to do with your healing. Nothing.
You can rebuild yourself completely, reclaim every piece of who you are, and never forgive a single thing that was done to you. That is not bitterness. That is a boundary.
That is you deciding what you are and are not willing to carry. The people who push forgiveness on survivors are not thinking about your healing. They are thinking about the discomfort of watching someone be held accountable.
Your healing is yours.
Forgiveness is yours.
And one does not require the other to be real.
Love, Zen x
Survivor