05/03/2026
There was a season of my life where I truly did not realize how far I had drifted from myself.
And looking back now, I can see it was not just one thing.
It was everything changing at once.
At the beginning of the year, I lost my dog.
At the end of the year, I lost my mom.
Somewhere in the middle, I got married.
And while people often picture being a newlywed as this magical, beautiful season, the truth is that grief does not pause just because life is also handing you something good.
Sometimes joy and sorrow sit in the same room.
After we got married, my momās health started spiraling fast.
I was also letting go of the home I had lived in for 14 years and adjusting to a completely new way of living.
Then came homeschooling.
Then came sharing 50/50 custody after having my daughter with me most of the time for so long.
It was so much change.
So much loss.
So much adjustment.
And I do not think I fully realized how sad I was.
Or maybe I didā¦
but I did not know how to process it.
I was still showing up.
Still doing what needed to be done.
Still moving through life.
But inside, I felt far away from myself.
I fell out of the habits that used to keep me grounded.
My thoughts were not leading me somewhere healthy.
Everything felt heavier than it should have.
I stopped numbing in April, and that opened my eyes to a lot.
Then later in the year, SuperPatch became one part of the support that helped me shift.
Not in an overnight fix kind of way.
More like I could finally think clearer, breathe deeper, and start rebuilding the healthy thought patterns and daily habits I had lost along the way.
That is what alignment has felt like for me.
Not becoming someone new.
Coming back to myself.
And I think that is why I share this now.
Because I know what it feels like to carry change, grief, and sadness all at once and not even realize how deeply it is affecting you until the fog starts to lift.
So if you are in a season where life has changed faster than your heart knows how to handle, I just want to say this:
You are not weak.
You are adjusting.
You are grieving.
You are becoming.
And none of that pain is wasted.
