01/06/2026
the last 6-7 years have been a crazy ride — renovations, moving, building this house and homestead from the ground up. then moving my business out here. and it's been such a weird experience.
i got caught in this state of "when this is done, i'll be rooted. i'll feel settled." — and yet, nothing is ever "done." lololol. cue the constant striving and anxiety and lack of presence.
last week was a defeating week. more cancellations and schedule shifts than I've ever had. which is funny, because I swear it was the universe saying — here's your contentment. be happy without the striving or overdoing it. see if you can let space in your schedule feel good.
it did not feel good in my body. but i was aware of it, and knew from my yoga practice that shifting from striving to non-striving can feel super uncomfortable for our nervous system. our body doesnt move as quickly as our minds.
i surrendered to it. i let myself live in the uncomfortable feeling. i reflected a lot.
through reflection I realized that my goals i set 6 months ago h ave come to fruition (freeing up most evenings & weekends, only seeing 1-2 clients a day, working w women who truly value what I do and the space i've created) but my body and nervous system haven't caught up yet. it takes time for the body to "catch up" to the intellectual mind.
once I realized that, i took the day to be as present as possible in the things i was doing, and quite literally had to tell my body (through breathing practices, meditative techniques, and reflection ) that we are good and this is what we've longed for).
this picture came up on my husband's phone from 2 years ago. such good timing. & god's reminder of how far i've come. that i've done enough, and continue to do enough .
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