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The Bitter Bruja, Portland, OR (2026)

12/29/2019

My dreams have been getting WILD the closer it gets to the New Year. I had one last night that I wanted to share on here. ⁣
The dream started with me and 2 of my friends in one of their cars, and all of a sudden this purple light enveloped the car and started moving it. My friend that was driving began to panic,accelerates the car and we were able to shake off the light for a few minutes. It comes back again and this time it lifts us completely off the road and we start soaring through the sky at a really fast pace. Suddenly the light disappeared and we were plummeting towards the ground, we crashed into a river and the car was sinking quickly. I was able to open the door and escape and helped my friends out of the car. ⁣

Then it goes to a scene of the 3 of us running through the woods, som**hing was chasing after us. A person comes out from behind a tree and he tell us to follow him, that he would lead us to a safe place, my intuition told me to go with him so we did. ⁣

He took us to this strangely beautiful underground mansion, and the people there looked Regal, but also Alien like. Two of the people pulled me aside and told me I come from an ancient Royal Alien bloodline, and that they're a part of my family. They explained that I manifested on Earth in this lifetime as a human because the family was being hunted by a Malevolent alien race, my family said I was special because I had specific powers, so the decision was made that I would go into hiding until the time was right. ⁣

They went on to say that humanity has been enslaved by these Malevolent aliens for centuries, and that a war is going to break out soon where all things hidden will be revealed. The family I'm a part of was working on assisting Humans to break free, but we were found out and they started hunting us. What happened in the car earlier was that the Aliens have been on to me for years and have tried many ways to kill me, but to no avail, because I cant die at their hands, I can only die when I choose it. That it's also one of the reasons why I get attacked by people and unseen entities often, the aliens posses a lot of humans and that's how theyve remained so well hidden. ⁣
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12/23/2019

I created a YouTube channel in where I will be sharing Spirtual wisdom as well as some of my personal experiences.

12/23/2019

A few days ago I began candle magic to help me break through the blockages that get in the way of my Abundance/Prosperity. My emotional wellness the past few weeks has been the best it's been for quite a while, however, yesterday I woke up with a lot of stress and an overall sour mood. On the Solstice I did Pranic healing on myself and it released so much, so it made sense that my emotions were a bit turbulent. I also knew that what was coming up for me had everything to do with the spell I cast.
Later in the evening as I was meditating in front of the candle, one of my favorite songs by Chancha Via Circuito began playing in the background. My body reacted to it and started swaying on it's own, moving along with the melody, a vision came to me of me being on fire and dancing and a voice said "get up and Dance". I have so much anxiety about dancing alone for some reason, I always feel like a fool when I do it, so its difficult for me. I didnt move from my seat and the voice once again said DANCE. I listened this time, I got up and started the song over and asked my Ancestors to move through me, so I danced and danced until my forehead was drenched in sweat. I could feel the presence of my Ancestors, I could feel them moving with my body, with my soul and I began to sob while I was dancing. I kept seeing visions of me on fire and it felt like I was dancing through my blockages, that I was literally setting them on fire and opening the roads to my abundance and prosperity. I finally collapsed onto the floor and was hysterically crying, I cried and screamed, even a few Gritos came out lol. I felt myself be emptied of the sorrow that I have been carrying around with me my whole life. This went on for a few minutes, and after the crying stopped I started to laugh hysterically! they were big, deep belly laughs and they flowed out of me beautifully.
Once the laughing stopped, I sat up and asked my Ancestors to surround me with gold light, and I allowed for the gold light to enter me and fill the spaces that were just created. Parts of me that once carried sorrow and doubt, are now filled with the love and strength of my Ancestors. My mood was completely changed after this, I once again felt confident and the stress melted away. I knew that movement was important, but I didn't really realize how important it really is for me until last night. I am grateful to my Ancestors, and I am grateful for myself being open enough to receive this guidance.

If you ever get a message that you need to get up and dance or move in any specific way, please listen to it. Let your Ancestors guide you, let them show you how you can heal yourself and let them fill you with love and strength. We are our own greatest healers, and in listening to the Guidance of our Ancestors and Spirit team we can be led into a space of truly transformational healing.

12/17/2019

Throughout our lives, we experience traumas, attachments, projections from others, etc. that build layers around our cores. This creates stagnation and blockages within our energy which can eventually lead to things like illness, disease, and chronic pain. Energy work is helpful because it can remove the blockages that have accumulated over the years, allowing your energy to flow and making it so you're able to heal yourself. As humans, we are innately able to heal: when we get a wound or an injury, our bodies activate specific mechanisms to heal that wound. Energy work is just another one of those mechanisms, but instead of only healing our physical bodies, it heals us as a whole

I have been receiving energy work for nearly 10 years and have been practicing it for close to 7. It has helped me heal my addiction to he**in, alcohol and other drugs, as well as s*xual addiction. It has also helped me move into a better space with my mental health.

As a newly Certified Pranic Healer, my job is to help you heal yourself by moving your energy around and clearing whatever blockages you may be struggling with.

To celebrate learning this modality after dreaming about it for years, I'm opening up my schedule for folx that are interested and I’ve decided to offer 2 sessions for the price of one ($100) for the New Year!

If anyone is curious and has questions please feel free to ask, and if you'd like to book me, slide into my DMs.

11/15/2019

Hey loves! With my big move happening so suddenly and so SOON, I decided to launch a GoFundMe to help me with my landing in San Diego. Because everything is so sudden, my current financial situation isnt able to support me doing this, so I really need help right now. I will be offering rewards for folx that donate specific amounts as well!
This move is what is really launching me into accomplishing the goals that I have set for myself, and gaining support to help me take this first step is so important. I feel so incredibly confident for this next phase of my life and feel ready to step fully into my power. If folx could share this and/or donate it would really mean the world to me!
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Here are the reward tiers:
$15-45: you'll receive a 3 card oracle or tarot reading
$55-$120: you'll receive a a full reading $125-$200: you'll receive an Hour long Energy work session with me, these can be done in person if you live in San Diego, and if not Itll be a distance healing. $222-$333: you'll receive 2 Energy work session, one hour each and a card reading

Thanks so much I'm advance to anyone that shows support! The link to this is in my bio:) Also! If donating through cashapp, venmo or PayPal is som**hing you'd prefer to do, this is my info.
Venmo:
Cashapp: $thebitterbruja
Paypal: [email protected]

11/11/2019

CW: Schizophrenia, SUI Ideation, mention of ableist term
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A few months ago my mental health was in an incredibly rough state, I was starting to experience symptoms of Schizophrenia again for the first time in many years. I began to hear voices again, pushing me to take my life, they were persistent and I came close to su***de twice. Thankfully I had the love and support of my Husband and some incredible friends to help get me through this darkness. I also was lucky enough to have my Mentor working with my energy every night. I've shared a bit about this in a recent post, but over the last few months I've been chewing on what it has meant for me to be diagnosed as Schizophrenic, and how Spirituality has helped me transcend this diagnosis.

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For many years I didnt tell a single soul about this diagnosis, I wasn't necessarily ashamed but more so terrified of the backlash that I may experience if anyone ever found out. It wasn't really an "acceptable" mental illness, there was so much stigma around it and a lot of the people in my life would either make fun of people diagnosed with this or fear them. I eventually felt comfortable enough to talk about it, it was difficult and some folx definitely reacted in some awful ways. I've now learned how to be more open about it and have found friends that dont think I'm scary or too much for them, and that has helped so much in my healing process.

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Attempting to understand Schizophrenia from a Spiritual perspective has been what has helped me heal the most. What I personally think is that a person who is diagnosed with this mental illness (as well as many others) is navigating through life from a higher dimension, we have access to energies and entities that most people naturally dont. Of course, everyone can access higher dimensions with Spiritual awareness/mastery as well as the use of psychedelics, but some of us are just already THERE. Before colonialism people that would now be diagnosed with Schizophrenia were seen for what they really are, Healers, Medicine People, Curanderxs and Visionaries, but sadly, in modern Western civilization we've called our Healers Ill and have disconnected them from their gifts.
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When you're not using the gift that was given to you by Spirit (because let's be real, we are all gifted in some way) our gifts become our curses. I wasn't taught how to hone in my Gift, and it turned on me. Yes I was still functioning from a higher dimension, but instead of having access to my Guides and Ancestors, I was constantly being attacked by demons. It took me years to finally start to recognize that I was Gifted, that I wasn't Crazy, and that the things I was seeing and hearing were very much real. My Spiritual path has been up and down over the last few years, but I can say with confidence that it has healed me in ways that modern medicine never would have been able to. Dont get me wrong, I fully believe that modern medicine is incredibly important and has done a lot of good, but I also believe that its definitely behind when it comes to actually healing mental illness. I think that if you're trying to achieve real, deep healing, that s**t that'll change your life type of healing, you need to tackle all aspects. Therapy is important, and so is having some form of Spiritual practice. For me personally, energy work has been one of the most transformative forms of healing that I've experienced and I HIGH KEY recommend finding a Healer that you click with and trying it a few times. I'm not a Therapist, or a professional, I'm just someone that learned how to heal themselves and I want to share my knowledge.
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My Spirituality is Decolonizing, I've hid in the shadows and stayed quiet for so long because I was tired of being gaslit by people with stunted perceptions, but I'm not keeping quiet anymore. Making this post was difficult because I had those voices in the back of my mind telling me I dont know s**t about s**t, but in all actuality, I know a lot because I've lived these experiences and gotten through them. If any of yall struggle with Schizophrenia/schizoaffective disorder or any other severe mental illness, I'm always pretty open to sharing experiences or holding space if its needed.
Thanks for holding space for me always friends, your support is so much appreciated.

11/06/2019

Over the last few months, Som**hing that has been coming up a lot for me was my time in Jail, and a lot of the emotions that I was feeling/experiencing when I was locked up. I shared with yall some time ago that I had spent a year in jail when I was 18, and spent my 19th birthday behind bars. A lot of folx feel sorry for me for having gone through this, and yes the situations that led me to this were terrible and the Prison industrial complex is trash and needs to be abolished, but I do ask for folx to not pity me, because in all honesty going to jail saved my life. I know that in most cases this is not peoples experience, but for me it changed things in a big BIG way. I mentioned before that in Jail I was introduced to different Spiritual practices, like meditation, yoga, cardomancy and astrology (I actually got my hands on an Astrology book while I was in there and would make peoples birth charts for 4 ramen noodles, a bag of coffee and a milky way bar) and being introduced to these things really helped me change for the better. My first few months of being locked up I was buck wild, I was always fighting, doing drugs and was just pi**ed, my time was going by ACHINGLY slow. One day while looking at my calendar and my 200+ days left in jail, I realized that yes, I may have been locked up but It was my choice to either keep doing what I was doing, or create som**hing positive out of this incredibly unfortunate situation, I chose to work on making things better. I made friends, I read constantly, I got creative and most importantly I went within and got to know myself on a deeper level. To my surprise I ended up actually having fun, and this made my time go by so much faster. Years after I was released, I heard a message from Spirit that one of my missions in this lifetime is to go back to jail and to Prisons, not as an inmate, but as a teacher. That I needed to bring my healing work to Prisoners and also teach them how to do it. There are millions of people behind bars that get forgotten, who are like ghosts to society, and they need healing just as much, if not more, than the rest of us.
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06/18/2019

Im 12 days post op and today is the first day in weeks that I havent been in PJs and a top knot. Recovering from top surgery has been quite the ride. Some days were UNBEARABLE and others have been surprisingly easy, but over all I am so incredibly happy with the decision Ive made. Ive struggled with body dysphoria the moment that I started to develop breasts and as I began to flow into my gender identity the feeling of not feeling at home in my body grew more and more, and I never thought that som**hing like this could happen for some lil brown q***r from the hood. I feel so blessed and privileged to have been granted this opportunity. For the first time in 20 years I feel HOME and its honestly incredible. I'm so appreciative of everyone that has been here for me through this transition, thank you for helping me come home. (I havent been able to wear lingere in 10 years and recently got some ~shout out to ~ and BITCH I cried when I saw myself in it for the first time)

05/12/2019

We are as Gods, we might as well get good at it.

@ Portland, Oregon

02/06/2019

CW: addiction, abuse, r**e, kidnapping, jail, eating disorder, child s*x slavery, he**in

Im going to be sharing parts of my story the next few days/weeks and wanted to start with how I became addicted to he**in.
When I was a kid, I used to see things. What I saw was mostly people that others werent able to see, Id also sometimes see creatures that didnt appear to be of this dimension. This went on for a long time, I would occasionally talk about the things I saw and my parents would always play it off as me having imaginary friends and just a vivid imagination in general. When I was a little older and these "imaginary" friends of mine didnt seem to go away, my parents took me to see a Psychiatrist. The psych I saw immediately said that I was Schizophrenic and that I had BPD, Severe depression and severe anxiety. He then prescribed me 7 different types of medication, and for a whole year I took them all. The entities I saw went away, and I felt like It left a huge hole in my life. The medication also made it so I didnt feel anything and I hated it. After a year, I attempted su***de, I was obviously unsuccessful. After my su***de attempt I stopped taking my medication cold turkey, and I once again started seeing things. Instead of seeing the entities I considered friends my whole childhood, I began seeing entities that appeared demonic. I started hearing voices, that were dark and consistently told me to hurt myself and others. This went on for another year or so, and along with these things my eating disorder started to manifest. I was 13, and was falling apart. I was being bullied constantly and had to deal with so much racism, fat phobia and homophobia, I couldnt take it anymore. Then, I opened up to a friend about what was going on and he said he used to see things too and what did he do to make them go away? He started using He**in. This one conversation changed my life. I saught out he**in and finally came across it and tried it for the first time with some "friends". The relief I experienced was incredible, the voices went away along with the pain and the sadness, and all that was left was pure bliss. This led me into 5 long years of heavy addiction. There was some short stints of forced sobriety due to being caught by my parents and having to go to outpatient rehab twice, but besides that my use was pretty steady. I didnt really have a childhood, by the time I was 16 I was a run away and had been forced into child s*x slavery by someone I thought was my friend. At 17 I was kidnapped and held for 3 days then r**ed by multiple men and was left for dead in a field in Riverbank, CA. I somehow managed to crawl my way out of this and as soon as I got back to my Pimp he forced me back out on the stroll. I manged to escape him finally then wound up in jail because of the abusive boyfriend I had at the time, after getting out of jail I over dosed and died for 5 minutes. I had an out of body experience (im going to share more about this in another post) and this is what initially woke me tf up and showed me that theres more to life then whats directly in front of us. By this time I was 18 and wound up in Fresno CA and caught my first big case and then my second and had to spend a year of my life in jail. While in jail I met a Bruja, and she taught me about the Chakra systems and how to work with energy and so much more. Learning these things helped my time in jail go by quickly and by the time I was released I felt like a different person. Over the years I realised that what I saw as a child werent imaginary friends, but angels, my guides and my ancestors. I learned that I was not Crazy, but so incredibly gifted. Im still healing from these events and so many more that took place in between and then after. I still feel like i have blockages and am unable to see things the way I used to, I more so hear and feel. For a long time I was not able to come to terms with everything that has taken place in my life, but now I have accepted it. I dont like what had to happen to get me to where I am today, and Im not going to sit here and say Im grateful for all of it. However I will saw that I am grateful for the person I have become because of those experiences. All of these things gave me the knowledge I needed to help others going Through similar experiences. I understand that these things happened to help me become a damn good Lightworker. I am here as an example for anyone going through the most, that we can and will get through it and that we can fu***ng thrive after. Thanks for sitting with me and reading a part of my story. Im so very excited to share more of myself with yall.

02/03/2019

Ive been working on being more vulnerable and open by sharing my story with more people. I usually only share certain parts of myself with friends that I know in real life, but over the past few years Ive been told by friends, my guides, ancestors and higher self to share my story. However, due to trauma and abuse I believed for so long that nothing I had to say was worth listening to. I was told most of my life, by my father, so called friends and bullies etc. that I was "dumb" and worthless and would never amount to anything, so of course this trauma created a HUGE blockage and in later life prevented me from being vocal. I spent a long time not talking very much, or only having very superficial and shallow conversations. The last few years I have been working on healing this blockage, and I feel like Ive finally broken through! These past months I all of a sudden just started to LOVE talking, and just releasing my voice. Ive started singing loudly and started to tell more stories. I realized that Im an incredible story teller, and that YES I DO HAVE SO MANY WONDERFUL AND INSPIRATIONAL THINGS TO SAY, AND I AM WORTH LISTENING TO, regardless of what anyone from my past has told me. Best believe Ima start using this voice of mine as much as I possibly can! So, Im going to start sharing more of myself with yall, and sharing some of the most beautiful and some of the darkest parts of my story. My story truly is incredible and inspiring. I feel like one of the best ways to heal trauma and to move on from your past, is to speak about it in an open, honest and vulnerable way.
Use your voice yall! Dont let the ghosts of your past prevent you from being who youre truly meant to be, Your story is important and deserves to be shared, theres someone out there right now that needs to hear it. Trust.
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01/18/2019

I havent been taking a lot of selfies these past few months (or making posts in general), because my eating disorder and dysphoria/dysmorphia have not been doing so well. Its incredibly hard to feel confident in oneself when your mental illness is telling you your worthless and hideous and all the other awful things you've been told about yourself, by other people are true, so why even bother. I am TIRED of feeling this way, I am tired of treating myself like anything less than the fu***ng GODDESS I truly am. I have been working so hard to heal these parts of myself, and in doing so, I started to see just how much this eating disorser has damaged my life. One of the main reasons I started using he**in at 13 (and then m**h at 15) was because I wanted to be thin, so so badly. Ive taken copious amounts of diet pills (some highly illegal in most countries, and very dangerous) laxatives, tried every fad diet etc etc. And in turn have harmed my body permanently. I dont deserve this pain and I am going to beat this fu***ng thing, because what I do deserve is to love myself and love this body that I have been gifted with. My body is so resilient and strong, it has carried me through some of the most painful and most beautiful parts of my life, it deserves better. The last two weeks have been brighter for me, Ive been taking a course by Black Femme Witches Brew thats been helping me connect to my power and has been teaching me how to honor myself more fully. I was finally able to take selfies again, and did a lil esque photoshoot and felt so damn FIRE doing it. I am going to work on doing readings and healing work, and posting more content, I just needed to focus on me and my healing for a while.
I am feeling so blessed right now with all that i have in my life and feel myself rising out of the darkness that Ive been in. Im getting married on the 13th of February to an INCREDIBLE human , and I am just beaming. Im also going to be getting top surgery in a few months, and I am overwhelmed with joy about it. Ive been wanting this surgery for a LONG time, and I feel like getting it is only going to improve my relationship with my body.
I AM READY. @ Portland, Oregon

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