04/01/2026
“When did you know you were trans?”
At the exact moment I was meant to.
It has been 12 years since I began transitioning, which for me began in the mind and heart.
This part of my authenticity journey used to be extremely hard, painful, and frustrating. I was depressed and anxious. I felt alone.
And yes, in my medical journey, I’ve come up with challenges requiring me to face my dysphoria head on, over and over again. I’ve been in spaces where I am my only advocate and surrounded by people who don’t know how to support me - it doesn’t feel good.
I kept going because deep inside, I knew one day I would feel whole and complete. That one day, I would feel like Jamie and I would belong. I knew the time would come where I would feel authentic joy, freedom, and healed.
Today, I’m here. Having the privilege of taking my testosterone shot and utilizing my estradiol cream, covered by insurance, and going about my life. It’s not as simple as business as usual and IT IS, my usual.
I wake-up and in, each day, ready to provide what I love to provide on this planet. I get to serve my purpose and be Jamie. Seen and unsee by me and by you.
I’m still here and I’m improving, growing, and transforming. Out of burnout and inside, my real self.
I used to say that younger me wouldn’t have believed that I’m still here and I see now that somehow this wasn’t true. I always knew because I kept going.
I’m so grateful I didn’t give-up. I’m so grateful for those who have supported me along this way, and those who challenged me.
Right now, I feel authentic joy and freedom as Jamie because I create it to be so. I create it for me. I create it for my trans, non-binary and gender-expansive siblings who are no longer here, and those who don’t feel safe to speak-up. I create it for the siblings who are still here, loving through this powerful journey.
I became who I wanted to be when I grew-up. That’s what I’m going to say when I’m in the late years of my life. And for now, I’ll celebrate who I am with full excitement for who I’m becoming. And who that will be is to be revealed in divine timing. Thankfully, I’ll always be Jamie.