08/19/2026
I sat in my childhood bedroom today and cried because I didn’t want to go back to the reality of being an adult, and growing up and seeing my family getting older is hard for me.
I’m grateful to see everyone get older and still be alive and well, but as someone who has anxiety over aging and dying, it really hit me today.
You can’t go back except for in memories, and it made me realize that for the longest time I was always chasing money, when one of the biggest piece of wealth is time. Time with loved ones, time spent doing what lights up your soul, health is another piece of wealth too. I’m sad that I wasted some of that time, but grateful that I have beautiful people to spend future time with.
I’m grateful while still being a little bit sad for the time that has passed that I didn’t appreciate while I was in that space.