18/08/2022
Long post ➡️ but maybe someone else needs to hear it too. Here goes!!
Jan 2022: 100% recovery from Achilles surgery, get COVID and it wipes me out. No energy and absolute exhaustion take over. Long Covid sets in…. For months I have fatigue, fogginess in my mentation, sleep so much…. What is wrong with me?! This is not me! Get up, Ashley! Are you depressed? Are you sick? Why can’t you workout? What’s WRONG??????
That’s how this all started….
Back story: I’ve worked out regularly for a little over 20 years, and I’ve been a “CrossFitter” for 11 of those years… I have pushed myself to the limit, I’ve been so sore that I could hardly move, I’ve lifted more weight than I should in a workout just to prove to myself (and probably others) that I could do it, I’ve skipped rest days, and subsequently I’ve rehabbed injuries due to not taking rest days. I’ve worked very hard to maintain fitness, but maybe not “health”. Since having the Achilles surgery, rehabbing that, and then turning 40 this past January with Covid, I have literally been forced to redirect my focus to simply caring for my health. It was very difficult for me to come to terms with the fact that I wasn’t able to lift certain weights, or do certain movements, keep up with certain athletes, or max out certain lifts with the other girls but after a lot of introspection, improving my self-talk to attempt to be more positive about myself and my situation, and encouragement from my husband and friends, it is getting easier to redirect my focus to my health! From here forward, I will workout to enjoy myself and my time with my friends and the athletes that I am training; I’ll workout to maintain my health, maintain and build muscle (because we know women need muscle on their bodies to be healthy), maintain my cardiovascular system, and simply rest when I am tired or overworked! I admire the dedication of the athletes that I am surrounded by at and I would never ever take one second of experience with them for granted, but this is me saying it’s okay to rest, it’s okay to take a week off, it’s okay to not fry your body to make it to the top of the whiteboard, it’s literally okay….