10/06/2023
Sitting here after doing my farm chores in my hat that one of my bestest bought for me. I sit here, and I’m amazed at what my body can do now that I couldn’t do last year. When I tell y’all, I was knocking on the door to the depths of hell, I was. I didn’t wanna live anymore. I told the same friend of mine. I will never hurt myself, but I can’t live this life. There was no light at the end of the tunnel for me, but I was desperately seeking to find it. When I got Covid and had to go to the hospital three times because I was so sick a fire was live within me. I said to myself I am going to do everything I can to fight these chronic illnesses I have, because I can’t die. It has been a year journey that I have been taking steps daily to heal myself. And it’s not just one path there’s so much that I have had to do and continue to do in this process. But for anybody out there that doesn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel I promise you it’s there you just might have to dig a little deeper to find it. For any of you that don’t understand the chronic illness battle because you’ve been blessed enough to have health your entire life be compassionate to those who have struggled. You can never understand how dark and lonely this journey can be until you live it. But I am so thankful. So thankful for the fire it’s been lit in me that keeps me pushing, and that allows me to sit here and enjoy my little farm, my daughter, the sound of nature all around me, and the hope for a beautiful future.
🙏🏻🦓❤️🩹💪🏻
