23/02/2024
My journey to sobriety began last April. I happened to read a book called, ‘Quit Like a Woman’, and it became a catalyst for me to see alcohol in a whole new light.
I had spent the last few years removing toxins from my life, from perfume, to non-stick cookware. And I realised that despite removing these toxins from my life, I was still willingly drinking a toxin reasonably regularly. Drinking alcohol was now incongruent with my way of life. But I had given it a free pass? On what basis?
I was proud of the fact that I generally avoided softdrink, because it was so unhealthy. But 4 ginger beers in a row? That didn’t count right? Another free pass. I knew it wasn’t healthy, but I NEEDED it. Didn’t I?
I also questioned whether I wanted my son to see my drinking. Was that the right example to set for him? The whole world was already going to tell him he could drink once he got older, he didn’t need me providing that messaging too. ‘That’s a Mummy drink’. Gross. I’m normalising alcohol consumption through my own actions around him.
So, I decided back in April that I would no longer drink at my own house. And I wouldn’t purchase alcohol from a bottle shop. I thought then that it might be temporary, just for a little while. It isn’t like I was a binge-drinker (anymore), so I didn’t really have a problem.
I had 2 drinks in May. And then I didn’t drink again until October. It went by easily, I had no expectations of myself. Then I had a few drinks while out to dinner for a friends birthday. I explored why I felt I needed to drink there. And learnt even more about myself. I had another event in October, and realised after a couple that I really didn’t enjoy it anyway. And then had a voucher to spend, so we had a few drinks in November too, I felt like it was a goodbye. My last drink was on Christmas Day. I had one glass of white wine, because we had paid for all you can drink. But I didn’t want it. And I decided then, that I wouldn’t be drinking for the next year. And so it began, my 12 months sober.
And I’m inviting you along for the journey too. Sober Circles starts tomorrow at 10am. Let me know if you’d like to join. Xx