22/06/2026
Bathing in Gratitude
Two of my most consistent companions on this life journey are doubt and worry. These fellow travellers have been with me for as long as I can remember. They havenβt stopped me from doing brave things but in the aftermath of some of my most bravest moments they become loud and overbearing. The social conditioning that keeps them by my side comes from those moments when I have spoken up on my own behalf, when I have stepped into a leadership role, when I have advocated for an ideology that I believe in that is linked to my own experience of subordination and when I have taken on the role of educating someone about their own limited mindset. This is always done with kindness and care, however, the fear of being met with judgement brings these shadow parts of me to the forefront every single time.
Interestingly, sometimes when life is not going well and the struggle is real doubt and worry can quieten (or maybe they are lost in the chaos without room to breathe). Sometimes the self fulfilling prophecy that βthis is the way things are and to just deal with itβ can feel comforting when life is not great, only in the sense that it creates a false sense of certainty that is tangible, yet not fulfilling or satisfying in any way.
What I am noticing recently is that even when life is good and things are aligning there is the ni**le that creeps in. What if something happens that takes away the things that bring me joy. What if what I believe in is not real and Iβm making it all up in my own head. What if my direction is an illusion. There is the sense of always waiting for the other shoe to drop.
When life is on a trajectory towards my highest good and receiving everything that I want it can feel scary. What if I get what I want and somehow it all goes away. What if I βFβ it up. Getting everything I ever wanted through the manifestation of my desires and intentions sounds amazing but it can be overwhelming and this is where the doubt and worry can be strongest.
What I have discovered is that when I sit in gratitude doubt and worry fall away. My thoughts soften and I can feel the presence of my life experience in real time and it feels blissful. It sounds like a no brainier and Iβm sure many of you already do this. For me it is about remembering, coming home to my self, to source in surrender. To know that I am worthy of all the love, abundance, kindness, gifts and fulfilment that is here for me. And to know that nothing that is meant for me that is from my highest good will be taken from me. I can put my faith in the knowing that when walking the spiritual path with intention we are often only shown the next step and as we listen and follow the call the trajectory of our good will continue to rise. Gratitude is the key to staying in this alignment and to receive infinite blessings. I am so grateful to live this wonderful human experience. I am blessed ππβ€οΈβ¨
