26/10/2025
I've noticed a pattern... It seems like on everyone's spiritual journey there comes a period of time where everything falls away and all that's left to hold onto is faith. There's nothing tangible in the darkness, no path, no obstacles, no light. And for a while now it feels like I've been fumbling around in that darkness without a map. I watch everyone else play out their storylines, while my storyline finished but I'm left sitting in the empty cinema unable to leave or start the next movie.
I've seen others approach the same darkness and that's where their spiritual journey has ended. Unable to hold faith when all their shadows come to confront them, they see them as demons and turn to god in a religious sense. It illuminates where God wasn't present in their spiritual path to begin with, prefering chakras and crystals over doing the deep inner work. Once the deep inner work starts presenting itself they praise God but shun tarot.
Others I see drop off the path completely, suddenly they no longer believe in something greater, they instead turn to logic and cynicism preferring to close off entirely.
Recently I've faced these same forks in my path. I've wanted to give up completely. I said a big f**k you to the universe, I stopped writing down my experiences in rebellion, I even gave up hope. But even in the dark I can't give up faith.
Many think faith and hope are the same thing. They're not. Hope is wishing and praying but from the perception of doubt. It's like forcing yourself to believe when you don't.
Faith is trusting that it's going to work out, not wishing, willing or pushing it to. Trusting that although nothing makes sense right now somehow it's all going to be ok. Trusting that the universe is shifting regardless of whether you feel stuck.
Not everyone is strong enough to make it through this stage. That's not a judgement, that's the truth. It takes great will and trust to continue when can no longer see. To be led through the dark and lead yourself.