14/03/2026
I often feel a discomfort here. Online. Like the bells that ring from high towers, chiming away regardless of who is passing. But I’m not oblivious. I am so grateful for this community, for the warmth, the tender convos, care is genuine. Collective. Felt. We sense it huh. I know I do.
I am at the beach. An uninvited guest on Palawa land, putting one foot in front of the other, trying to make a sweet humble gentle life. But how can I / we, when this medusa of a dystopian crisis is unfolding across the intelligent planet we call earth.
I read a quote recently from Barthes ‘the villain progresses the plot line quickly’, and it nested with a quote from Atwood, ‘a hero needs a villain, but a villain does not need a hero’, these are of course both binary perspectives, but they struck a chord & feel relevant in this current context. Maybe because it was also what came to mind after I spent a few weeks out in the back country and then returned to the temporal / political quickening of expanding horror.
What a privilege. To safely drop out. To go walkabout, not on the run, not escaping, not even hiking the trail, just walking and sleeping on the ground. Under star light and moon beams. Dipping in streams.Simple. A privilege I wish for everyone.
I do not take lightly that I am born in a time / place where I have safety. Abundance. Where I am educated and intellectually active. Especially as a woman. A mother. And I recognise the difference between complicity and criminality.
Limitations.
I recognise the importance in remaining attentive to my responsibilities, and to do this I tend my nervous system, with rest, sauna, dancing, a seat at the table with friends, to be present, so that I might in a small way, be in service to community.
I want to feel, even if it is the breaking heavy grief laden heart of this time. I refuse to have all the joy robbed from me. To be discombobulated.
Connection is co-regulation.
Here for you.
Hold gently my dears.
Lighting the fire as a vigil. Today and everyday.
Two days ago I felt the first finger of cold lay its hand on me. Summer is past, here are some memories.
Pics 3 + 4 from Antoine Chretien
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