08/10/2026
Content warning: sexual violence / attempted sexual assault
I AM JANE DOE.
except I went to the police
went to a hearing
and despite the evidence it got thrown out because he got himself a barrister and the judge seemed friendly with him.
I had to take the stand and he didn’t, he just sat and smiled at me.
The same way I saw him smile at me in the gym after. When I became hysterical, sobbing and left. The woman at the counter asked me what was wrong.
Smug. He won. He got off. However the police assured me he will always have those charges of abduction, deprivation of liberty and attempted r**e to his name.
They asked why we requested a closed court.
I got asked if I liked it.
They questioned my injuries. My swollen nose.
The scratches on the inside of my thighs from the velcro on his pants.
we had been at a university pool party for O week.
He told the police on his arrest he thought we were going to do some ‘smutting’
I thought he was walking me to cab so I was safe. I knew him as an old boyfriend of someone on my high school basketball team
I wasn’t ‘r**ed’ because I fought him off and ran after I had tried to talk my way out.
after i said no.
I remember turning to look for my escape as i was pinned down on my back in that park.
He was a footballer.
I wasn’t - but I was strong.
I remember the next day how sore my quads were from pushing him off me and running.
I still can’t go to the city botanical gardens.
And I have had flashbacks where I have witnessed myself running down the street flagging down a cab driver who had passengers and wouldn’t help me escape.
Since I was 18 this trauma has walked alongside me. Never gone. Never forgotten.
Good thing I turned into a remarkable woman with a promising career.
Here is my heartfelt gratitude to survivors in these difficult weeks and f**k you to the systems that fail us.
Stay strong and keep your agency x