24/02/2016
Morn all u beautiful souls ,,,have u ever had this feeling that u knew more , & believed that no matter what life threw at u that somehow you would over come it & know in ur heart that there was more to you than anyone knew ,,,but what ? & u thought if only I knew this would all make sense ,,,, yes at sometime or another we all have ,,, believe me when I say this we all have a purpose none of us are here by chance no ,,, we're all needed ,..
For me personally I was always made to feel bad by my family because I didn't conform to their ideals that to be a good person & be loved & blessed u had to go to church , & not just on a Sunday no ,,, at every chance u got u just had to be there , but I took a different approach I knew in my heart that I was this beautiful soul that put all my time in to my children & step children , husband & family from a tender age of just 15 , don't get me wrong I believed in God & prayed but silent prayes each & every nite & also prayed with my sons , the simple ones that I was thought as a child & I thanked him for all I had & for all Iam & was to come & for trusting me with all these beautiful but complexed souls that needed love , but not just any love no , each of them required a different love to suit there own little personality & at times I cried & cried wondering why me , why did u choose me after all I was a child my self at 27 I had 7 children in my care yes ,, ranging from 14 to 2 ,,, & when the day was done I would feel this wave of calm & peace that swept over me & I would say thank u ,, thank u ,, may I have the same again tomorrow & I would lay my head down and fall asleep knowing that if I didn't wake up it was ok , because I did & loved with all I was & these babies would be ok ,,,, and they are ,,,
But I was still known of as the heathen , for not going to church ,, at Christmas / new year I would be ? Nd ,, did u go to church ??? ,,, & yes I did ,,, but I still didn't feel up to par with there thinking,,, but I knew & so did the man upstairs that I was loved & cared for & blessed for all I did & I would smile when no one was looking because no matter what. They th ought of me ,,,,I had this link to my creator no one knew off & that was all I needed ,,,
Time moved on & the years rolled on through love , laughter , tears & joy I grew up and became this amazing women with his help &all the children I was trusted with grew up to be loving , caring amazing souls that take my breath away for they are now parents them selves& my
Heart
Just melts as I smile & look up & say thank u ,,,
And now I find that I have a sense of peace & a knowing that allows me to read faces , feel other's pain & I get to deliver messages to others & even family , that brings them peace about all that ails them ,,, hmm it's ironic that the one they looked down on & chastised for not going to church is now a messenger for him ,,,,
Yes ,,, so it just goes to show that no matter what others think of u
,, all that matters is that u do what's required of u ,, by him no matter how hard or unfair u may think it is ,,. Do ur best that's all he needs & be humble & kind ,,,
And remember there's no one like u ,,, he loves & needs u just the way ur ,,..
Blessings ---
Suzy..
