19/05/2026
Dear Sam,
Today marks a year of you gone but it still feels like yesterday.
Navigating this first year has been tough for every single person who knew you & it’s been a different journey for every single one of us.
Grief comes & goes in waves….& shows up as something different each time like emptiness, love, pain, empathy, uncertainty, anger, confusion, gratitude, frustration, loneliness, togetherness & sometimes it’s all these things wrapped up in a big ball.
I think the “firsts” were the most confronting & confusing because you don’t know what to do with the emotions you’re feeling at times because it’s hurts so much😞
I will never understand why because there’s no answer that could possibly bring any peace but for me as much as my heart is broken something profound changed in me like a life lesson you didn’t know you were teaching & I didn’t know I needed to learn….
so for that I am grateful❤️
We all know that one day the hurt & pain will be released as you were from yours & replaced with love, joy & more laughter (which we still have it’s just more hurt right now).
We still laugh about your last Christmas & getting bogged but the pain still follows that & one day that won’t be so but for now we’ll take it as it comes.
You truly were one of a kind & are missed beyond belief.
We love & miss you everyday……Forever 50🕊️🪽❤️
Loads of love,
Your little sister Bel ###
