05/18/2026
I LOVE being ALIVE!!!
There was a time when I begged for death. I was severely abused physically by my mother and sexually by a babysitter, as a child . By my late teens, I used co***ne and any other drug I could get my hands on to numb the pain. I hated myself.
At 17, I was drugged and r***d by my 21 year old boyfriend, who I lived with for four years. He eventually tried to drown me.
At 29, as a young mother to two young children, I found out that my father, who was my best friend, was a pe*****le, after he abused my son. My husband blamed me and our marriage dissolved. My son chose to live with his father as he didn’t trust me anymore.
I wanted to die. I tried to end my my life. I didn’t want to wake up anymore.
During Covid, I found Meditation and then Yoga. I felt my body relax for the first time in my life.
This lead me to REIKI. This was the missing piece for me.
I didn’t realize that my nervous system had been hijacked by trauma. The energy was cycling in my body, begging to be released.
When I began balancing and realigning the energy in my body, I began to feel peace and safety in my body. I started to make friends with it, instead of punishing it for hurting.
Today, I love waking up and just breathing. Being alive is an immense privilege that I get to have every day.
I’ve learned to integrate parts of myself that I abandoned because they were too painful to look at.
I’ve learned that healing is not linear. It’s one day at a time.
I’ve learned to have patience and grace for my messy parts as the process and heal.
This is ALCHEMY! This is how we TRANSMUTE DARKNESS. This is how we return to love. This is how we remember.
I had the most INCREDIBLE experience today at the Toronto Islands! This swan came right up to me and sat with me for 5 minutes. People were stopping to take pictures of me with the swan. It was looking right into my eyes. We totally had a conversation with our souls.
It’s magic like this that makes me so grateful to past versions of myself for being brave and going deep so I can live my most AMAZING, JOYFUL, and AUTHENTIC life today.
If this resonates with you, message me so we can start your healing journey today.