Wanassa.Ma

29/05/2026

Week one of the immersion is complete.

I came in with an intention: to let the whole world become my querencia, the place where performance stops and the person begins. To simply be who I am, everywhere and with everyone.

Mama Cacao took that intention and went straight to the root, showing me the same truth each day, just from a different angle. Not in one big dramatic revelation. Something quieter, and somehow more confronting than that.

The first thread: I hold a story that I must perform my fire. That I have to earn my right to take up space. That my fire is only real if someone else acknowledges the flame. The question that cracked me open — can I be the fire without needing to show anyone the light?

The second thread went deeper still. Beneath the performance, beneath the need for an audience, lives a more primal fear. The fear of my own original impulse. The fear of the raw spark itself, in the moment it first ignites, before anyone else is even in the picture. I have been putting out my own flame before it can catch. The invitation I’m sitting with: the next time I feel the impulse, let it exist for one more breath before I judge it.

The third thread was about the Earth. About letting it become real. The stuckness I’ve been carrying isn’t a lack of energy or vision — it’s an old, deep pattern that believes I am not entitled to take up space in the material world. That real, tangible, lived fullness is for other people, not for me.

Three threads. The same room.

My mantra, carried forward: “The world is safe for my presence.”

Not as something I have mastered. As something I am learning to believe, one breath at a time.

23/05/2026

As the Content Development and Editorial Manager at Keith’s Cacao, I am lucky to have my toes dipped in just about everything the company produces and offers. I am also one of those cacao practitioners who, long BEFORE I started working for the company, did all of the Cacao Immersions on Trust, Prosperity, Creativity, and Relationships, and was also in the January cohort of this Deepen with Cacao Immersion. So, I had NO intention of doing this again! And yet, here I am, feeling very excited and immensely blessed!

As I sat with Mama Cacao on Thursday evening, the intention for this Deepening arose loud and clear: to let go, with ease and grace, of any residual fear or resistance around simply being me — standing fully seen in my truth. No masks, no pretending, no trying to impress or mould myself into others’ expectations.

Today, I woke up early and set up a very simple, unassuming altar: my cacao, beans for prosperity and proliferation, rose buds from my rose garden, and basilica burning in my grandmother’s traditional Cypriot clay incense burner.

As I opened my laptop to watch Keith’s recording and to enter into the my personal opening ceremony, an Instagram post popped up. It said:

“Spanish culture has a word for a specific place where you become most fully yourself. Where performance stops, and the person begins. The word is querencia — from the verb querer, to desire, to love. Querencia is the place from which your strength is drawn. The space where you are most at home in yourself. Not necessarily a physical place, though it often is. Any environment, physical or internal, where the performed version of you falls away and what remains is simply who you are.”

Cacao — Keith’s Cacao — has been my querencia.

My intention in this Deepening With Cacao 15-day Immersion is for the whole world to become my querencia: to simply be who I am, everywhere and with everyone. No performance, just me. 🙏🏼

22/05/2026

21/05/2026

Some days all you want to do is hang

10/05/2026

Mother, I forgive you
Daughter, I hope you will forgive me

02/05/2026

Grateful for a life so abundant in lessons, growth, connections, wonderful people, mentors, family, friendships, love, laughter, dance, food, cacao, and moments of pure gold! 🙏❤️

My special day yesterday was made even more special, as always, with some delicious, heart-warming and the yummiest raw, vegan, gluten-free, refined-sugar-free cake that has now become a birthday tradition, from the amazing ‘s Lick Your Plate cookbook!

05/04/2026

Death, resurrection an rebirth

Egyptian Goddess Hathor with her
vulture headdress playing a frame drum.

The oldest hieroglyph for the goddess of Upper Egypt

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The first historical cultures worship many female deities representing the Paleolithic goddesses fundamental aspects of creation preservation and regeneration.

She gives birth, she protects, she consumes and resurrects.

The vulture goddess represents one of the oldest mythologies of death and resurrection . One that lies at the heart of initiation rites.

As vulture, the goddess does not kill .
She consumes the dead in order to transmute the soul once again to life in the form of an egg.

The sacredness of the egg as a symbol of regeneration goes back further in time than we can trace.

Birds are twice born.
First the mother lays the eggs then the chick breaks out of its shell, in effect giving birth to itself.
The second birth enables it to soar into higher realms as a winged being.

The ancient mythological path of the bird goddess is a process of breaking forth from outgrown structures of personality and behavior just as the chick breaks out of the outgrown shell.

This is the basic metaphor of initiation.

Until that shell is broken what lies outside must remain unknown.
Once broken the shell can never be put together again.

It is the wisdom of no return, the womb cracked open lost forever in the initiates rebirth as a winged being whose spirit can fly through the three realms of heaven, earth and underworld.

And music, particularly drumming is always present in the rituals of initiation.
~ When the Drummers Were Women by Layne Redmond

03/02/2026

03/01/2026

Cacao landforms…

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