29/05/2026
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Traveling after major abdominal surgery and stoma reversal still comes with uncertainty for me.
Every new place does.
Where is the next bathroom?
How far am I from my place?
What if my body suddenly says no?
What helps me travel is not pressure or pushing through.
It is creating enough safety for my nervous system.
A calm apartment.
No expectations.
No strict plans.
Food that feels safe.
A neighborhood where I can walk slowly and know I can always return quickly.
And strangely, the less pressure I put on myself, the more becomes possible.
Today I wandered through Shanghai, sat in the park, had dinner outside, explored little streets.
Not because I forced myself to.
But because my body finally felt safe enough.
I think sometimes freedom does not begin when uncertainty disappears.
It begins when we learn how to meet it.
